Always Have Been

From when I was in high school, I would have a hard time sleeping. During these times I always had my best friend to talk to on the phone right until we had to get ready for school. When I didn't have anyone to talk to, I would stay and watch TV, read, write or day dream of what things to come. I was totally functional too.

After hs my lifestyle was completely nocturnal. Party all night and sleep during the day (the day meaning, 4 or 5 days later). After the party years, I would work two or three jobs at once that allowed to stay up all night as well and it made me feel safe in a way, again fully functional. Anyways, nowadays, my sleepless nights are filled with anything that feels the need to present itself in my mind.

However, I like the night for what it worth, there is something safe about being up while every else sleeps. The day can make a person feel disconnected from the world, even when everyone is awake. At least this way the disconnect is of necessity and not out of self-mindedness..??
ollifer ollifer
36-40, F
Jul 16, 2010