In the past year, I have not slept more than 2-3 hours a night excluding a handful of nights I was either sick or had taken so many sleeping pills (over the counter Melatonin) that I HAD to sleep. I just can't shut my mind off. I've been under so much stress this year that I find sleeping/functioning very hard. The lack of sleep does NOT help the stress. On top of it all, my therapist can't make her mind up whether treating my depression/anxiety or insomnia first would be more beneficial. I hate it. I just want some relief. The only time I feel okay is when I'm asleep or with friends/my boyfriend. I rarely ever sleep now, and my friends can't always be there at 3-4 in the morning because I physically cannot sleep no matter how exhausted I am. nothing works. Silence, music, a fan, an eyemask, clean sheets, lavender, sleep balm, temple rubs, melatonin, tylenol pm. NONE of it. It's so lonely and depressing to be up in the middle of the night, alone with my thoughts.