And So Tonight It Will Begin....

I haven't always had trouble sleeping. Actually, I used to heavily medicate myself before bedtime, just so I would sleep, but that's another story in it's self. So maybe I have.

But here lately, it seems like some nights I can sleep, and then some nights, I just flat out cannot get to sleep. I toss and turn, and turn and toss. Even if I do manage to drift off for a while, I wake myself up tossing and turning.

This is starting to have MAJOR effects on myself as a person. I am irritable, and moody, especially to my fiance, who doesn't deserve it. I'm not performing as well at work. I constantly feel tired. Like I have no energy. It really sucks! I am constantly being labeled as being lazy. And have no desire to do anything.

I have thought about seeing a doctor, but can't afford one. Then again, will a doctor even diagnose me right?

LadyRant LadyRant
22-25, F
May 22, 2007