Again And Again

Thank God it wasn't real. It was only a nightmare. That was the first thing I was thinking about. The second thought was; Another 3:25 am. It seems as I'm stuck with this number for the last two weeks. What can I do with this number?
3 + 2 = 5 and I can keep adding, multiplying OR I can get out of my bed .
I dragged myself out of my bed. My head was heavy.  I ignored my headache, I didn't feel refresh still i grabbed my book. I was able to study ONE page, then I couldn't open my eyes. I went back to bed for 2 hours. luckily today I had the luxury of going back to bed because I don't have school.
The problem is by the end of the day I'm so tired and out of focus. I  can't study. Maybe it should be TV + EP time....then I don't have to feel guilty EPing LOZ.
I think I'm going to ACCEPT the number 3am. Train myself to study in the morning, and stop morning my insomniac night. I believe a big cup of my favorite coffee will enhance my morning, and keeps my eyes open.
Who said insomnia isn't normal? maybe it is the new normal for me. Most likely I'm going to live with it, so I will try to get the best out of it. Grief sadness, and anger will not get me anywhere.  
No more POOR ME.. I hope.

I used to:

 I hope I will start enjoying my life even when my day start at 3am.
I will see if it is going to work.
WisePearls WisePearls
41-45, F
1 Response Sep 20, 2013

I do get it every second week or so but learned some mental exercises that I try before going to sleep and they helped to some extent. Mine is associated with thinking i.e. if a particular thought is too much on my mind, i am sure burning the midnight oil that night. So, through these exercises, i bring my mind to a relaxed state and force some good and relaxing imaginations into it before going to sleep. this helps.

I'm not very disciplined when it comes to meditation. I have a flying mind Lols...I will try that thanks for the advice :))