Again And Again
Thank God it wasn't real. It was only a nightmare. That was the first thing I was thinking about. The second thought was; Another 3:25 am. It seems as I'm stuck with this number for the last two weeks. What can I do with this number?
3 + 2 = 5 and I can keep adding, multiplying OR I can get out of my bed .
I dragged myself out of my bed. My head was heavy. I ignored my headache, I didn't feel refresh still i grabbed my book. I was able to study ONE page, then I couldn't open my eyes. I went back to bed for 2 hours. luckily today I had the luxury of going back to bed because I don't have school.
The problem is by the end of the day I'm so tired and out of focus. I can't study. Maybe it should be TV + EP time....then I don't have to feel guilty EPing LOZ.
I think I'm going to ACCEPT the number 3am. Train myself to study in the morning, and stop morning my insomniac night. I believe a big cup of my favorite coffee will enhance my morning, and keeps my eyes open.
Who said insomnia isn't normal? maybe it is the new normal for me. Most likely I'm going to live with it, so I will try to get the best out of it. Grief sadness, and anger will not get me anywhere.
No more POOR ME.. I hope.
I used to:
I hope I will start enjoying my life even when my day start at 3am.
I will see if it is going to work.