Freedom's Just Another Word For Nothing Left to Lose
I am beyond fearing abandonment, I expect it. I just take people as they come and then watch them go. For the most part I have learned not to cling. I did cling, just briefly last year. I really wanted that to work out. I wanted just one relationship that didn't involve some sort of abuse. I just wanted one. But it seems that just one is too much to ask. But I did learn a lot about myself in the process. I learned how to open up to people. I'm not very good at it--yet. But I am going to keep practicing. The nice thing about having abandonment issues is that I don't expect anyone to stick around very long so I can be as honest or as weird as I want to be because I know that it won't be long before they leave, anyway so I might as well just be myself. Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose, right?