She Is Mentally Killing Me
I don't know what to do. She makes me miserable and makes me hate myself. Being with her for more than a minute means having to deal with her insults on my father or her criticism on everything about me. My dad chose to divorce her when I was starting out in 8th grade. I am now about to start college and yet she still continues. She calls me the Devil's child. I no longer believe in God, partly because of her. Everyday she calls me horrible names, like **** or prostitute. She said I'd end up pregnant by the time I was 15, and the one happy thing I can say on here is that I'm 16 and still a virgin, though she acts like I partake in daily orgies. She calls me worthless and stupid. Deep down I know I'm not, because I graduated with honors, but I can't help but feel that way when she says those things. It hurts so bad to know that the person who carried you inside them for 9 months treats you so bad. We have a horrible relationship. She is extremely selfish and conniving. She has spread rumors to my family that I abuse her, which is false. Just when I want to rip my hair out, she becomes teary and begs for my forgiveness. A few days later, it starts again. What am I suppossed to do? She's my mother. I hate her, but I love her.