I got divorced nearly 5 years ago and i have to say i was guttted- almost destroyed by what my now ex did. I was depressed, i gained weight, i had no self confidence ( my x had destroyed that) and to top it all of my mum, my best friend and the one person who really understood what i was going through died.
I have 1 son, he is 10. It has taken a lot of hard work, but I am better, my confidence is slowly coming back and i am happy. 

This summer my son and i went on a holiday to Lanzarote. All by ourselves. I have to admit i was scared out of my wits at the thought of going, but we did.

I even wore a swimsuit.

We had a fantastic time. We made new friends and for the first time in  over 4 years my son began to open up about how he really feels about his dad, dads new girlfiend, the divorce etc. I broke my heart when he told me how he felt but i am really glad he did. I understand more now and maybe i can help him a bit more too. 

Who knows.

But having been on holiday together once we are already planning to go away again next year. And who knows maybe i will loose even more weight, get closer to my target  and wear a bikini!!!
mutleysmum mutleysmum
36-40, F
Aug 5, 2010