I Still Feel The Temptation...

I can't say I HAD it. To be truthful we will always have it because of our memories and shame. I started a LONG time ago. I was just a child in kindergarden. My parents split up just as I started kindergarden and naturally I thought it was my fault. It started out with toys and candy. Then stuff from stores. The first time I stole money was when I was in 3rd grade I believe. It was $100. I wanted to spend it but instead I gave it to my friend who didn't really have much. We are still best friends to this day. I don't regret it, taking that $100 and giving it to her that is. Time moves on and I'm still stealing and seldom got caught. It was my friends who consoled me. If you can believe it they accepted me for who I am and everything I do. Thats just how we are. It's sorta like this: "Hey guys! I stole this huge bag of chips for our day out in the field!" and they would say "Awesome. What else are we going to eat?". I loved them for it, to them its just what I did. But I did try to stop before they talked to me but I just COULDN'T. It was eating away at me from the inside. They helped me because they saw that I was tearing myself up about it. We got through some bumpy roads but it all worked out. I havn't stolen anything in 4 1/2 years. But the temptation remains. It always will. It just depends whether im strong enough to resist it. Whether WE all are.
SisteroftheNight SisteroftheNight
22-25, F
Apr 22, 2012