Like A Drug

I like being the 'innocent' looking girl that no one ever expects to be the klepto. I've taken things right from under my parents noses without them ever expecting a thing. It's bad I know but somehow I feel like I've accomplished some goal I never knew I had.The thrill of almost being caught and the run when I do, is quite exhilarating. Some day I will stop when the risk is to high but until then its my drug.
IncognitusLetum IncognitusLetum
18-21, F
3 Responses Jun 6, 2012

Kind of sexy!

I've been stealing for as long as I can remember. I put a Barbie doll under my winter coat when I was 6 years old, but I don't remember if I got away with it. I can't seem to stop. I can control the urge sometimes, but it takes a lot of effort. Never, ever from "real people" - only from stores, faceless corporations that justify my shortcoming. I know that I could lose everything I've worked for in my life if I got caught, and that's terrifying. But the thrill is addictive. Some weeks, I have to steal something every day; on my lunch hour, after work, on the weekends. Other weeks are better, and I am content with what I have. It's my biggest secret, and seeing that others are struggling with it, too makes me feel less "abnormal." It's defined in the DSM V as taking things one doesn't need, but I almost always see a need for an object I take. There's just not enough clinical expertise in this area to support some kind of treatment. I pray I never get caught.

ohh thats bad later it will put you in jail control the urge otherwise you will end up in dire situation and will harm you at the end.

In the past couple of months the urges have gone down considerably to the point that it is rare. I also have a sort of list like not taking from small businesses or keep it under $30ish