Bon-bon

Thanks for sharing this story. I know only too well how guilty and bereft you must feel.

I lost my boy Rufus just about this time last year. He had come to me when he was about four, suffering from Feline Immunodeficiency Virus. The vet had asked me to take him on because he had to be in an environment where there were no other animals. She paid all his medical bills, his food and his grooming costs. All I had to pay for was cat litter. Ten years on, his health started to decline. There would be a setback and then periods when he seemed to do well. He seemed to be doing fine when I left for 10 days in Scotland last Christmas.

Apparently he didn't do well when I was away. His minder didn't want to tell me because she thought there was nothing I could do. By the time I saw him it was clear that things weren't getting better. It's as though he waited for me to get back. I was absolutely gutted when I had to make the decision to end his life. I was at work and broke down in my supervisor's office, but couldn't tell her why because not everyone understands the depth of feeling one can have for an animal companion.

I wish I could say that I was dignified when the time to say goodbye but I was a mess and couldn't bear the thought of staying with him when they gave him the needle. I had done it once before with another beloved cat and I have a picture in my mind which I can't get rid of. I wanted to remember him breathing and warm. Luckily the vet staff all knew Rufus well and were as devastated as I was. I haven't been able to get another cat or indeed go back to the veterinary office where everyone had been so kind to me and to my father over the years. I have thanked them via email but that's as much as I can do.

For months afterward I imagined he was still walking around the flat. I moved five months later and one of the last things I found while cleaning up was a stray cat treat and a tuft of his fur. A last goodbye? He's with me every day and everywhere I go.

Christmas is hard for me since my parents are gone and now my pal is gone as well. I have trouble connecting with other people in a healthy way but I felt nothing but pure love for this little creature who was so sweet and so gentle and only asked to be loved. I'm glad I've at least had that.

i lost my baby, Sierra almost 2 yrs. ago. she was my golden retriever. died unexpectedly after a surgery just before her 9th birthday. i still ache over it. i miss her so much. i feel for you and am sorry for your loss.

I know the feeling of pet loss. : ( And am praying my sweet Tiger is not soon to be another loss.



Some one told me just recently that we have to keep in mind that these pets are entrusted to us as a gift, and we must think first of the joy they provided while here. I believe when I die I will see my cat and others I've lost.

I know how this feels taking a beloved pet to be put to sleep. The only comfort you can take is that you saved a lot of suffering for him. Don't feel guilty because you had no idea this would happen. It doesn't mean you loved Bon Bon any less.

:( Sad story.

You have my sympathy would you like to talk? can you private message me?

aww I'm so sorry about your cat,It's sad whenever you loose one of your pets

Did you know, when a feline passes over to the basket in the sky, they become shadows; you don't believe me. ? any time you are on your own, and it's quiet, usually toward the onset of darkness; and you imagine a movement just out of your peripheral vision, it is most probably Bon-Bon just passing by to checck you are still ok.

Our Dandy - named cuz his black & white was like a tuxedo & bib thingy - used to sneak under a sheet of newspaper & whirl round madly



Musta been da first spin doctor



But scientifically, your presence would not have stopped or cured a brain tumour, yes?



We find the prisoner Not Guilty, M'Lud



Must celebrate ya release sometime



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Sorry for your loss. It's so so sad when a pet dies. When I was a kid, we had a dog that was a pup when I was born, so this dog was almost like a sibling. When I was 11 y.o. the dog got sick and my dad had to take her away. I came home from school that day and found her place empty. It made me physically ill as it was like I just had lost my sister. Some people might find this silly, but for me it was worse than when my grandfather died. I was closer to this dog, as gramps and me never got to know each other so well as I was still very young when he died. So yes, I can very well understand that it was the saddest day of your life.

So sorry for your loss, I lost a kitty like that, I was traveling and he got sick, he passed before I got back home

I not great cat lover but do understand. <

:( always sad, I had Gizmo, he died, he was the best cat ever, I found him abandoned he was probably only about 10 days old, I fed him with an eyedropper he was so young, a vet recomended formula until he got older, I weaned him, taught him how to poop, liter-box trained him, he followed me everywhere like he was a dog, sat on my head, shoulders, lap...I miss him, I came home from work at the Salon one day and found him wrapped in a blanket with a very sad neighbor who said he went to turn on his truck and did not know Gizmo was in the engine, he died, I could not bare to save the blanket :( He was only 8 months old.

How absolutely sad. I also lost a beloved pet... my cat that was more than a friend for me, so I can relate. :(

I am very sorry for your loss. Really sad.

I am very sorry for the loss of your little cat. We had a similar experience with one of our cats. His name was Oliver and he was the biggest cat we ever had , he too started to do odd things in the last few days of his life. Our vet thought that Oliver must have had a brain tumour. It was a very sad day when we had to have him put dow.

It is amazing the attachment one feels towards pets. We have 8 dogs and 4 cats at the moment. 5 of the dogs and all of the cats were rescued in Spain and brought back to the UK. Some of them are getting old now, and I know that somewhere up the road, a great deal of heartbreak and sadness will be inevitable, but for now it is great having a houseful of animals, a handful, yes, but so much affection, definately wouldn't want to be without them ! I am sorry for the loss of your beloved cat, I know just how hard it is to lose a pet .

My eldest cat had to be put down a couple weeks ago. He was the most social, most cuddly and super soft cat I have ever known. I loved him more than anything else in this world.



I definitely feel your pain. It really sux losing an animal. I bond with my pets so deeply. I have never been able to handle losing them. It just tears my heart up.



So, just know your not alone right now. I'm still going through the motions myself. Its excruciatingly hard. I hate it. Sorry for your loss.

I'm sorry you lost your beloved Bon-Bon. I had a cat adopt me that almost got barbequed. He was my best buddy. I wrote a story about him. BQ was truly a guy's cat. He was my barbeque buddy.

Get one of those baby droppers and feed her some baby formula?? I have done that before with my cats to get them to drink..I have a cat called LuLu :-)