Dont Know What To Do

Alright, so I am 19 years old and I'm a guy which will probably throw a lot of people off to begin with. I've tried talking to people about what's happened to me but everybody seems to brush it off. Which I simply refuse to do. About two months ago now I lost a child because my ex-girlfriend miscarried. I don't know what to think or how to move on. And my own perspective on myself has gone right down the gutter. I'm not sure how to feel, or how to think, or react. There is no real way to react I suppose. It's tearing me apart from the inside out. And I don't feel like I deserve anyone in my life anymore because I messed up so bad. Because I have lost a child and never want to go through that pain ever again.
ahatheway1 ahatheway1
Dec 28, 2011