Lil James, Mom Loves You And Misses You...

Lil James was my youngest son. Only 15 years old and a typical teenager. We called him Lil James because there were two James' in the house and he was the youngest. On 09/20/2010, my son was walking home from a friends house when he was hit by a car and killed. Only two blocks from home, in his neighborhood where he had grown up. Appears the driver did not see my son when he was crossing a street in a residential subdivision. I have no idea why my son did not see the car. We only have the driver's version of the accident as there was no witness.
Anyway, my son is gone and I am left trying to figure out on a daily basis how I can live with this grief. Tomorrow is the 2 year anniversary of his death and it still hurts just as bad as it did when it happened. I am still a basketcase and my life is in shambles. I am a spiritual person and I pray all the time about this. I know my son is in a better place, but I am selfish, I want him with me. It is very hard to give up your child folks. I just wish I could understand why my precious child's life had to end so young. I miss him everyday and I cannot wait till I get to be his Mom again in Heaven.
vosshootieowl vosshootieowl
56-60, F
3 Responses Sep 19, 2012

I am very sorry for your loss. In my very humble opinion, you are James's mother and always will be.

All I can say is that sadly, I am another one that has suffered the loss of a child. Please know that I understand. *Hugs*

I am sorry for your loss. You only had your son for a short time and your pain must be immense. Anniversaries, birthdays and other special events, obviously compound this pain. There will come a time when this pain eases and you can remember the happier moments, and not as many sad ones. You will always miss your boy, and will always love him.

Take care