So Sad

My Mother passed away on November 15.  She had leukemia and after a very hard fought battle she finally succumed.  I am so sad my heart hurts.  I miss her very much.  She was my best friend and we could talk about anything.  She was creative, whacky and super smart.  I feel like i am just gowing through the motions now that she is gone.  It is just so hard to deal with, I feel so alone.
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3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

Not too good majorloner: I am staying with someone and am unhappy, miss my mom so much it hurts. I cry at the drop of a hat.<br />
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I just wish she was still here with me no matter what i am finding that people just don't treat me or love me like she did. Yes its brutal.<br />
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Debbie Happy holidays anyway, i hope we all get better somehow. I am praying for us all to move ahead and that i find an apt with someone nice. I feel like i am a mess right now.

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my mother on Nov 14, she was in the hospital and ended up on a venetilator. I was horrified and am very sad. She was my best friend.<br />
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It takes a long time to heal and we are really never the same again. A new you will eventually emerge, stronger, smarter but with a sadness that is hard to shake.<br />
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I am here if you need to talk.<br />
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Debbie I am having a very hard time also and feel sad and lonely without my wonderful mom

Hi Debbie,
Yes it brutal! I am sorry about your loss as well. I find that I keep running images of my mother through my mind and wow is it painful! Then every now and then I realize that she is gone and I won't have her to talk to anymore and Christmas is killing me! How are you doing? How are you dealing with your mothers passing?

So sorry to hear about your mom. I too lost my mom to a heart attack when I was 30. The grief does pass, but the missing of her presence never does...but that is a good thing, as I still speak to her in my head...and I feel her answering me. It is never enough, but it does help me to feel her being a part of my life.<br />
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Go ahead and stay in communication and feel her love smiling down on you.<br />
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Thank you very much for your kind words. I have been trying to communicate with her in my mind, leaving little notes...I really do miss her, its been six days since she passed and I find myself all over the place emotionally

You are very welcome - somehow it helps to talk about her and relive moments that you have shared. One odd thing that I hear is quite common is that my mom would come to me in my dreams - and I always had the same reaction of ...oh, you aren't really dead. But she would let me know that being dead is not really being done with spirit as that lives on. Every time tha happened, I woke up and thought (knew?) that it was reality on some level.

Take care.

Yes true talking about her and remembering her helps. I have not had her in my dreams yet but I have seen some things that defy logic. On the night of her passing i was very upset, crying etc...To my left is my dining room table and on it a basket full of clementines. Well one of them flew out of the basket across the table and landed on the floor. I willl never forget that