Letter From JayI lost my parents 6 years ago in a car accident, I have struggled to cope since but lately have been finding it unbearable. I'm 13 and some days I just want my mum. My brother jay looks after me and he tries his best but I just seem to rebel against him and screw up or I shut him out completely. I wanted to tell him how I am feeling and what is going on so he knows that I don't mean to shut him out and I love him. I struggle to get words out sometimes so I thought writing a letter would be easier. He read it and hugged me and told me he loves me, and then he wrote me a letter back, he said its so I can see how he feels on paper and I can read it whenever I need comfort. This is what he wrote to me...
My dearest little Sophie
You are my favourite person in the whole world, I love you so much I just hope you realise you mean the world to me. I know you have been through a hard time and suffer unbearable pain, I will do anything and everything to ease that pain and put a smile on your face. I also want you to know that I have been hurt too and so I understand your suffering more than you will ever know, if you let me in I know that we can help each other through.
I am sorry that I have to be tough with you, I am trying my best to raise you as mum and dad would have wanted. I would love nothing more than to just be your big brother and enjoy spoiling you like every little girl should be. You need to know that you have never disappointed me, I worry sometimes that you will come to harm, but I am proud every second of every day to call you my baby sister. You are an amazing girl, one day I hope you will see how strong, sensitive and beautiful you are. I see so much of mum and dad in you, and that's how I know that they are with you every second. They are a part of you Sophie, they are inside and they love you.
You have a long way to go, you are still at the start of your journey but I will be there every single step holding your hand.
I am here for you. I love you.
Forever and always