My Baby Born Sleeping

We found out on our 1year anniversary we were going to have a baby.  The whole pregnancy was going great.  We found out at 20 weeks we were going to have a little boy.  At 26 weeks I had really bad upper back pain.  I went to the hospital cause I just knew something wasn't right.  They had 3 doctors come in and put the ultrasound on and they all told me to hold my breathe and then just didn't say anything.  Then they finally told me that he didnt have a heartbeat.  I was devestated.  They induced my labor and the next day I had my beautiful son born sleeping.  We were able to hold him and keep him with me for a while.  I was told I had something called HELLPS Syndrome.  I spent 5 days in the hospital and when I was released we had a memorial service for him with close family and friends.  I never thought anything like this could happen I just don't understand how everything can go so well and then suddenly just not be ok.   He was born on April 26, 2010.