I am so upset I want a baby sooo badly I had one natural misscarriage in Dec 19.. My boyfriend cried so hard, and so did I .. We noticed I was pregnant like a short time after we misscarried one, and i was 7 1/2 weeks pregnant when my mom slipped me abortion pills, which she told me if she ever got word i was she would kill it, and she wouldnt be embarrassed by it,. my bfs aunts just had theres like 3 weeks apart theres a 15 year old girl whose pregnant here and so is my science teacher.. I want one so very badly. But he is like we can always make one but we have the rest of our lives to be together and to have oen... but i want one too, but we are just not ready.. i was so sad but he is like if honest to god you want one we can make one. i wish what we've been through didnt happen but i cant change that but i can see us in the future having one... I get so depressed.. I dont know i want one but in the back of my head is "WHAT IF....IT HAPPENS AGAIN!!" I dont want that to happen... i freak when he is not using a condom. Im scared that i will but i just dont know if we are really ready but i want one so badly.. I dream about it... think about it... its always in the back of my head!!!