Words Can't Express....

Words can't express the pain, hurt, anger and depression you go through when you have lost your child. Your baby is a part of you growing inside you and you feel the natural instinct to protect, nuture and care for it but what happens when you lose that? So many emotions its hard to explain.

I personally have lost 2. Considering my medical condition my ob/gyn says its a miracle that I was even able to get pregnant, but is it really? I mean...whats the point if I lost both pregnancies? Whats worse is nobody wants to talk about it. You tell people you lost the baby and they say sorry and walk away, but what happens when its days, weeks, months or even years later and you still havent dealt with the pain?

Walking around every day pretending to be ok. Even though my husband is supportive...I know deep down he still wanted a child. Will he lose intrest in me and find someone else to bare his child? Will he resent me? How will people look at me? Will they pity me? Why does that lady get to bare a child and I don't? Why is this happening to me? So many women abort their children like trash, but here I am a woman who actually wants a child and will care for it, but I don't get that choice or chance?

Most of you ladies may have asked yourself these questions, but I just wanted to let you know that I have been there. I feel your pain, but these troubles don't last always. I can now say that I was blessed to give birth to a beautiful baby boy this past August in 2012. It seems God finally heard my cry for help. Its not too late for you. Keep the faith!
Blackbarbie1987 Blackbarbie1987
26-30, F
13 Responses Jan 19, 2013

Hello,Black Barbie, your story is sad and i feel much regret for your loss.

I'm a mom of two and its heart breaking to read this. I have a close friend who's wife can't have kids and I know it's hard for her at family functions to see many of us with kids having a great time. I've never really known what to say so I don't bring up anything. Reading about your story I know I need to reach out and see if she wants to talk. I'm glad you were success because children can bring so much joy to your life

I haven't been around in months, so happy belated congratulations on your baby boy. :-) I have no doubt you will be a great mom.

Thank you, sweetheart! :-)

that's exactly how I feel and im sorry for your loss but am glad you were blessed with a baby also,no one understands what im going through its hard to say how I feel cause its a mixture anger sadness and and the big question I keep asking is why did this happen

I am extremely sorry for your loss. I feel for you, young lady. You were blesses to have your son, as I am sure that you realize. No, that definitely does not take away the pain....I realize that.

All the best to you in future, Ms. Backbarbie1987!

once again so sorry, dont think like that!
your husband i pray is a good man so he will and should never leave you.
am glad you believe in the Lord He Will never leave you nor forsake you Amen

I too lost a child. My son was still a baby and needed an operation for a faulty heart. He passed after two weeks in the hospital. I think about him often, even after 25 years. I feel your pain. I hope you can find happiness and good feelings.

I am sorry for your loss too, sweetheart! Life is crazy like that sometimes, but I am here if you need to talk. :)

Thank you blackbarbie.


When I read the first few lines, my heart ached because I too have gone through that. Yours has a happier ending in that you have been blessed with a child. I'm sure others will find hope and increased faith with your story...Thanks for sharing

very sorry to hear that... my thoughts are with you always

My prayers are with you...

So sorry for youe lose, it is something you always carry with you. Hugs...

Sorry to hear about your lose and pain, but most of us are not sure what to say to someone who has lost a loved one so we walk away not because we do not care. Sometimes its just for not wanting to say the wrong things and thereby adding to their sorrow.

I understand that, but just checking on them once in awhile is nice. Its just nice to know somebody cares.

Okay, please forgive all of them. How are you doing?

Awesome words of encouragement to all the wonderful ladies out there open to having a child - especially if they had miscarried. Our nextdoor neighbor had three miscarriages. She now has four children!