Words Can't Express....
Words can't express the pain, hurt, anger and depression you go through when you have lost your child. Your baby is a part of you growing inside you and you feel the natural instinct to protect, nuture and care for it but what happens when you lose that? So many emotions its hard to explain.

I personally have lost 2. Considering my medical condition my ob/gyn says its a miracle that I was even able to get pregnant, but is it really? I mean...whats the point if I lost both pregnancies? Whats worse is nobody wants to talk about it. You tell people you lost the baby and they say sorry and walk away, but what happens when its days, weeks, months or even years later and you still havent dealt with the pain?

Walking around every day pretending to be ok. Even though my husband is supportive...I know deep down he still wanted a child. Will he lose intrest in me and find someone else to bare his child? Will he resent me? How will people look at me? Will they pity me? Why does that lady get to bare a child and I don't? Why is this happening to me? So many women abort their children like trash, but here I am a woman who actually wants a child and will care for it, but I don't get that choice or chance?

Most of you ladies may have asked yourself these questions, but I just wanted to let you know that I have been there. I feel your pain, but these troubles don't last always. I can now say that I was blessed to give birth to a beautiful baby boy this past August in 2012. It seems God finally heard my cry for help. Its not too late for you. Keep the faith!
Blackbarbie27 Blackbarbie27
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 23, 2014

13 years ago I was 9 months pregnant with a baby girl the day my daughter died I was lying on the couch and she started moving around so much I thought wow she is having a blast I was laughing and then my whole stomach jerked and I knew it wasn't good that was my baby dying and I was laughing her name is Sydney other people said I should have named her heaven but Sydney was what I named her we had a funeral and it was the worst thing that has ever happened to my family as time has gone by my heart has healed but no matter how many kids I have Iknow there is one missing