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Lost Faith

I have lost my faith in God a long time ago. I used to revered Him, believing all the good, the fairness, and the Benevolence of Him. But now for me, He is just a cruel , unfair, blind God. I have suffered alot of injustices, cruelty, and sadness for this past 3 years. People said that its all a test from God for me. I disagree! The evil woman who deceived and betrayed me is having a good time and happiness in her life for these past 3 years, and yet me the poor victim of that evil woman's lies are having a miserable life for me these past 3 years. Where the hell is God's justice to that evil woman for her evil acts towards me! Every year i would sit down on my own and begging and crying to God to mete out his ultimate retribution to that evil woman. But God being deaf and blind shows ignorance to my tears and sad plight. And unfairly He gives happiness and more happiness to that evil woman, and as for me its misery and more misery for me. And till now God's justice still eludes that evil woman, and God is indeed Blind.
yazed yazed 31-35, M 10 Responses Jul 14, 2010

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I know what you're going through. My wife left me about two years ago, and I was angry with God. If He wasn't going to be there for me, then I wasn't going to be there for Him. For two years I was away from Him. Then came back to Church one day about 3 months ago. There was a sermon over Proverbs 4. It was over the need for us to hold fast to wisdom. Proverbs 4:4 "Let your heart hold fast my words; keep my commandments, and live."<br />
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Why do I bring this up? I learned in that sermon, I hadn't been holing onto His wisdom. I hadn't been seeking the kingdom of God. I was concerned about myself. Living for the moment. I was drinking, living in immorality, doing what I wanted because I had lost sight of what matters. So my wife left me. It took two years for me to realize that I was the one that drove her out, I hadn't loved her the way Christ loves the church. So I forgave her, and asked for her forgiveness and a burden was lifted. We're still divorced, but we get along.<br />
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I guess what I'm getting at is this, hold on to the wisdom of God. He never guaranteed an easy life, free from hurt. It's how we respond to those moments of pain that shapes who we are. Don't be too overcome with pride and demand from God, I made that mistake. He doesn't respond to our screams and tantrums, or if he does, it's usually negatively. Trust in Him. It's a life long process, filled with hills and valleys, but it's worth it. I'm learning how to let go of my pride, and rely on the Creator. It's a fight worth fighting.

My friend, it is then we are to prove our faith in Jesus. I understand your pain, but we are to ask God to forgive those who have hurt you. You are also suppose to forgive them as well. God does not punish us, rather he put us into situations that will strengthen us. Remember Jesus asked his father why he forsake him, it is also then that he gave up his spirit to him. Although we feel forsaken at times, we are to give everything onto the Lord and he will take care of the rest. Don't lose faith my friend, rather deepen it, he never puts more on us than he knows we can bare, in other words, God thinks you are very strong and know that you can withstand these situations, be honored he thinks so highly of you.

God has a plan for YOUR life. Earth has a lot of evil people in it (it's not supposed to be heaven).<br />
God tells you in His word that you WILL have troubles and trial on this earth. Suffering (if you accept it with the right attitude) builds character and strengthens faith. God answers prayers in HIS way and HIS timing - not ours and that's why His Word says "patience is a virtue". If we are to be conformed to the image of Christ then suffering MUST be included. Just as God had a purpose and a plan and a time for Christ's birth, life, death, burial and resurrection so he has a plan for each of us. Has not Christ died for you and forgiven you of YOUR sins, how are you going to pretend to follow Christ and refuse to forgive others? "Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and hoping your enemy will die".<br />
He does not instruct us that we have to FEEL LIKE forgiving and we are in no way condoning the wrongs done to us by others, but in order to be a true follower of Christ, you have to CHOOSE to forgive.<br />
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I've been through much suffering in this life and I was brought to the point to where I could run and let go of my faith in God, or I could stay and learn to TRUST God. I chose to stay where God had ALLOWED (not caused) me to be placed. My faith was increased ten fold and is worth more than "gold or rubies" to me. I have been with him 30 years now and I can testify that He has been faithful to me even when I have not been. HE HAS NEVER EVER LET ME DOWN and proven Romans 8:28 to me personally. He has taken the evil that has happened in my life and worked it for my good and His glory.<br />
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You must hang on and do things God's way - I promise you that you will never regret it!

maybe think of it this way..<br />
generally we consider life to be the "main course" as it were, and heaven being the "deseart"... we consider life the gift god has given us.. but imagine if its the other way around. god gives us this life to see what we will do with it.. if we do good deeds we are blessed with entry to the kingdom of heaven... do wrong and its hell.<br />
from this viewpoint.. heaven is the main course and life is the starter.<br />
this means if we can go througfh these hard times and keep faith and be good people, we can enter heavon.. we do bad things with this life and we do not prove our worth..<br />
i like this look on life.. <br />
some people have better lives than others and its easier for them to lead good lifes that are happy.. for others its hard.. thats just the way it is.. no use sulkin over it.. <br />
right now you may be depressed and angry but really you are blessed.. maybe you need to understand that you are wastring your life.. i could end at any time and you may not have done the things you wanted to. so do them now..<br />
think of this as inspiration:<br />
there are people living in the most hurrendous circumstances. they live in africa or the middle east ect..<br />
these peoples families are more than likely been torn apart by war..<br />
they sometimes starve, are abused phsically and mentally... they grow up as children in these horrible places that would make tghem see horror at every turn.. yet many of them keep faith.,.. they love life, and defy evil.. they undersdtand that this life we live now is not "it" that by our actions in this lifetime we make an eternal bed for ourselelves in our fathers house..<br />
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life is wonderful.. i personally grew up in a horrible place with violence, drugs and murder on every strret corner, but i keep faith, becuase i belive god does put us in these circustmaces to challenge us to reamin good.<br />
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also as a sidenote.. i belive the Bible says that thou shalt not ask in prayer for personal success..<br />
i belive it is wrong to ask our holy father to help us get that job over someone elese, or to give us lots of money..<br />
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god is in the small things.. love life and god.. lead a good life.. if you cant find happyness in yourself maybe look to help others find it.. and during the process you may find what you seek.

maybe think of it this way..<br />
generally we consider life to be the "main course" as it were, and heaven being the "deseart"... we consider life the gift god has given us.. but imagine if its the other way around. god gives us this life to see what we will do with it.. if we do good deeds we are blessed with entry to the kingdom of heaven... do wrong and its hell.<br />
from this viewpoint.. heaven is the main course and life is the starter.<br />
this means if we can go througfh these hard times and keep faith and be good people, we can enter heavon.. we do bad things with this life and we do not prove our worth..<br />
i like this look on life.. <br />
some people have better lives than others and its easier for them to lead good lifes that are happy.. for others its hard.. thats just the way it is.. no use sulkin over it.. <br />
right now you may be depressed and angry but really you are blessed.. maybe you need to understand that you are wastring your life.. i could end at any time and you may not have done the things you wanted to. so do them now..<br />
think of this as inspiration:<br />
there are people living in the most hurrendous circumstances. they live in africa or the middle east ect..<br />
these peoples families are more than likely been torn apart by war..<br />
they sometimes starve, are abused phsically and mentally... they grow up as children in these horrible places that would make tghem see horror at every turn.. yet many of them keep faith.,.. they love life, and defy evil.. they undersdtand that this life we live now is not "it" that by our actions in this lifetime we make an eternal bed for ourselelves in our fathers house..<br />
<br />
life is wonderful.. i personally grew up in a horrible place with violence, drugs and murder on every strret corner, but i keep faith, becuase i belive god does put us in these circustmaces to challenge us to reamin good.<br />
<br />
also as a sidenote.. i belive the Bible says that thou shalt not ask in prayer for personal success..<br />
i belive it is wrong to ask our holy father to help us get that job over someone elese, or to give us lots of money..<br />
<br />
god is in the small things.. love life and god.. lead a good life.. if you cant find happyness in yourself maybe look to help others find it.. and during the process you may find what you seek.

Dont ask how my life is painfull./<br />
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Everytime I kept my faith in god and begged every movement but nothing happened.<br />
I prayed for every interviwe i went i was going perfect and i answered every quetsion an dsome one got the Job who did not deserve that whyyyyyyyyyyy??<br />
Not in one job but many times it happened. When ever i wanted to achieve some thing, I gave everything i had nothing left from my side but what missing was god's blessing, that has been betrayed everytime.<br />
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Even those dont believe in god they also got everything they dont even deserve but i was always been thrown away by god.<br />
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I begged daily every time, every second of my life but nothing happened,<br />
I still suffering frompain and misery??<br />
dont know when will god listen to me

You sound like a very lonely and sad soul. Have you tried just trying to count your blessings once in a while?? It really HELPS!!!<br />
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Do this:<br />
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Sit yourself down in a room by yourself with a pen and paper <br />
no tv , no radio, no cds or videos or anything to distract your thinking.<br />
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Then write the numbers 1 thru 10<br />
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What I am blessed with:<br />
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Are you healthy? Do you go to the Dr alot ? Or are you sick alot? Do you have food in your house? Or do you go hungry?<br />
If you answerered YES to both of those then 1 and 2 are both BLESSINGS!! See what i mean?<br />
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If you can count just 10 things you have .....I can guarantee you that there are people ,, many many people right here in the USA that dont have ANY of those things !!!! <br />
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THink about that and that will help you alot. I promise. :)

I have been going through the same loss of hope and faith in god. I was angry and bitter and called him unjust, asked him where was he when i needed him ,when he expected me to do good and help others, i did what had to be done. i would cry every night, contemplate the worst of me.....My sins, my anger and hate blocked me from "Jesus".<br />
I tried looking for him everywhere, asked for prayer's, asked for mercy. Untill i was told that i had to go for confession, inorder to find "jesus" again. I didn't quiet believe in confession and would always make excuses to not go. Untill recently i held up the courage to do so and i feel he is showing me my path and my life seems to be unfolding as we speak. I let go of all the hate and anger, i felt for the people who hurt me, some of them who kicked me after doing good to them. <br />
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I know this is hard for u to understand or believe, but truly the very fact i stumbled upon ur story, shows that god cares bot u and is trying to send u a msg through people around. That he still loves and cares for and that he hasnt given up on u and so u must not gve up on him!

Gid is never blind to your suffering, i have had a incredibaly bad past 4 years my best friend was shot dead the other commited suicide. Is God blind?! can god help? yes! but in his own time and own way, the day my mother got breast cancer was the day that i lost faith but god never ignored me, gods justice will come in the end wen he gets hold of all evil.<br />
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i sat and cryed my self to sleep most nights wonderin were god was in all of this how could mum b facing death how could god let my 2 closest friends die, do u no wat i was told dont ask for revenge or gods justice ask for forgiveness and go and shout and stamp your feet at him.<br />
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i no wat u must think of me right now but trust me it does work wat dosent kill you makes you stronger. <br />
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answer this if god was really blind would he sacrifice his own son jesus for us so that we could have a better life wen we die ???????

That isn't how God works. Why don't you ask God to take care and look after you. He loves you.