I Have Lost My Faith In God
Growing up younger i had a pretty god life that involved religon, but as a young girl i was exposed to, too many religons at one time. Being young my grandmother semi raised me, because my mother wanted to be wild and have no responsibilites. My father co parented with her through long distance support, my grandmother raised my sister and I in the church to give us grounds of religon. Growing up bapist there are so many rules to how you live, and how you raise your children which was taken out of content, to the point of you bring judge. After becoming older my grandmother allowed my mother to take us again, this time my Mom intentions where not so good. she had meet a man, who had a new form of religon the he called hebrew for black jews and told my mother that his god said she needed her children. after the course of one week my sister and i vanished from the world, my mom had taken us from school, and starting us with working around the ages of 9. In stead of growing up like normal children we had to make a certain amount of money to be feed, and the crazy part is we are from America. If we didnt make enough money we would be abused or starved, now imagine a mother doing this to his oldest daughters. NO school, no play, no friendships no nothing over a course of 3-4 years or more. because of that all of my life has been non stop pain from relationships where i was been used and unloved, to my family being against me, to me living on the streets. All of my life has seemed to be horrible and through it all, everyone tells me to wait god has something in store for me. And i am so tired of hearing that while i continue to watch my life sink, some things got better. But the more i take 2 steps forward the more im pushed back. I just want to be loved and cared for as a woman, and i so tired of being told to wait on god to make everything better. To me when you praise god, you are selling yourself short and making yourself believe something that s not really there. because if there was really a god why should a nice person suffer, when there are eveil people who are living there life wild and free.... Its Because they dont care for religon....
By:
Alostsoul23
Age:
22-25
