I Have Lost Weight

What An Unhappy Marriage Can Do To You

By: Lucidblue

Written on April 16th, 2011

An unhappy, uninspiring, unmotivating marriage made me lose myself. I didn't care about anything. I gave up all that I enjoyed for a couch and tv every night. I was so unhappy for more than 3 years, and I allowed myself to become something I wasn't. I was a dancer, an athlete, and I became nothing.

This year I've taken control of my mind, my heart and my body. I am healing wounds of the past, managing the sadness of the present, and taking care of my body once again. I am back playing my sports after a long hiatus, I am running again (well not for a few months after a nasty injury), and I am taking care of what I eat again. I am slowly becoming me again, and that makes me happy.

I cannot wait until this injury heals and I can get back to doing what I love to do again. I want to run, I want to play soccer, I want to be active and healthy. I have so many goals for myself, and I won't let life pass me by again. I won't let myself get into a place where I am so unhappy in a relationship again. I deserve more than that, and I will get it right this time! I will never allow myself to waste away like I did. I'm going to be healthy and happy!

By: Lucidblue

Age: 36-40 , Female

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13 responses

sjav8995

I am in a similar situation. Thanks for sharing cause I know I can get back in track too.

Oct 21, 2011
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eternalhope

A relationship that is supposed to be nurturing and supportive can be so damaging as well.

I'm glad you've managed to find your way out of it. Good luck.

May 8, 2011
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lostbutfinding

Awesome! I made a similar change in my life 2 years ago. No matter what happens, it's better to feel good about something. I feel good about being fit. Sounds like you do, too.

May 8, 2011
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Lucidblue

Thanks jmo, things are better, although there is more path yet to travel. I will get there!

May 8, 2011
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justmeonline

Hmm. Sounds like was pretty unpleasant, and good that you are finding things better now.

May 8, 2011
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Lucidblue

Thank you both, yes I am taking back control of my life in so many ways!

May 7, 2011
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Lucidblue

Thank you both! ryliegirl, you are right, taking back my life breathes life back into me again, there's purpose, and I am becoming me.

Apr 17, 2011
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ryliegirl

It breathes life back into you when you decide to take back what you enjoyed to do. The energy and new beginnings are a good way to start. Keep the smiles going, and love life! ;)

Apr 17, 2011
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Lucidblue

Thanks =)

Apr 16, 2011
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BillyBeach

Awesome LB!!!

Apr 16, 2011
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Christyna

Very true. Good for you!

Apr 16, 2011
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Lucidblue

I am glad that you have been able to find yourself after such a long time being bed ridden. Although our situations are different, it is exciting to be back to being who we are again!

Apr 16, 2011
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Christyna

Good for you! Exercise and diet is rehab and heals our wounds toward ourself. I too am a runner and dancer and am just getting back into exercise. I was severely ill (bed-ridden) for 16 years and the Lord has delivered me. I am me again! It is so joyful to go outside and play with me. lol. I so missed running, blading, and being outdoors.

Do you ever rollerblade? Ahh, you have to dance on your skates! It is the most freeing and expressive exercise to do. I love it! I listen to KLOVE.com Christian radio and when I dance, I dance for the Lord. It is another way to worship and praise and thank Him for all He's done for me. (Sorry to get all spiritual.) I just cannot help it. I am once again me!! I am once again free!! No illness, no physical pain and torchure, no trauma, not hopelessness. All just overflowing love, joy, and even money. Can you believe that? It's a true miracle! I love being me again! Thank you Lord!

Apr 16, 2011
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