"I Just Don't Know What to Do With My Self (dun Nun)!"

There are always so many ideas and thoughts looming through my mind as though they could easily peer through and be something amazing, but somehow I can never really get them out of there box... the trap I call my mind. Sometimes I start things and cannot finish them due to time constraints, and other times, I want to start things but then forget about what it was that I wanted to do. I've been really working on the not forgetting part of my life and have been working really hard to write everything down so that I don't forget.

But I still do.

Sometimes it's the conversations that I have with the amazing people around me that gets me all excited at that moment in time to do something, but of course I never can because of the prior obligations, and then I forget about how amazing that something was.

Also, I have been trying to focus and motivate myself to figure what it is out that I want to do with my life.... but I can't. I haven't been able to get to the point where there is something that is so intriguing that I just want to do that for the rest of my life. Right now I am going to school just because it is free and something that people in this day and age have to do... but in reality I just want something or someone or myself to get motivated enough to step out and do something new. I have been living in the same city all of my life, and I am stuck. I don't know how to venture out. I love staying put and bitching and complaining, when really I just need to get out. So.... how the hell do I do it? How? How? How? is the looming question that I somehow in twenty years can not overcome.

by golly goodness.


libbylou libbylou
18-21, F
3 Responses Mar 18, 2009

Open the front door and start walking, clear your head.

I came across this website because I was always told that I never finish anything that I've started, in my situation I am the only one with a vision of independence which makes it extremly hard. Is it the same in your situation?

Wish I had some advice... but this is the story of my life at the moment! Wishing you all the luck hon, send some to me too :)