~ THAT'S A REALLY HARD PILL TO TRY & SWALLOW ~
That most of my scars are self-inflicted. I caused most of the damage done to my psyche. It was me, reliving every terrible thing anyone's ever done to me or said to me. Letting it eat at me like a poison til all that's left are scars. Scars that still ooze blood at times. Scars that make my insides ugly & sore. It's hard to realize that all this damage is mine. I am the one to blame. It hurts to know that I built the prison behind which I live. It hurts to know that I can't seem to fight it all on my own, & yet I can't really trust anyone else enough to let them help. I'm trying, but it's not easy & I've always taken the easy way.............ALWAYS!