**Most of Them Caused By Me**


That most of my scars are self-inflicted. I caused most of the damage done to my psyche. It was me, reliving every terrible thing anyone's ever done to me or said to me. Letting it eat at me like a poison til all that's left are scars. Scars that still ooze blood at times. Scars that make my insides ugly & sore. It's hard to realize that all this damage is mine. I am the one to blame. It hurts to know that I built the prison behind which I live. It hurts to know that I can't seem to fight it all on my own, & yet I can't really trust anyone else enough to let them help. I'm trying, but it's not easy & I've always taken the easy way.............ALWAYS!

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2 Responses Mar 19, 2009

why do u hurt yourself cause of what ppl have done or said ? ive been thru alot yet i gain strength and move forward..all of it is a test to break you down in life ..fight and over come..conquer that what is holding u back .....there must be someone who really loves u and ur probably causing them emotional pain also since they cant seem to help you..let them help u..<br />
and stop telling yourself all that negative stuff like a broken record..tell ur self good things like a broken record instead.

you're much too hard on yourself.