Low Esteem

I have am suffering from low self esteem as a result of years of emotional abuse within my family. Having grown up being told I was ugly, fat and unintelligent, I believed I was unworthy of having friends and resigned myself to being alone. However, moving to university expelled my negative beliefs in my self image, and for a year I felt I was worthy of other people getting to know. I was actually happy. Sadly my old friends moved away about two years ago, and ever since I have been struggling to make friends. Joining various student activities over the years have got me nowhere, I have ended up feeling very rejected and alone. All that appears to elevate my state of lonliness and depression is one night stands, however as I don't have a group to go out with, this is not possible at the moment. I feel as though I have been given a life sentence of isolation, unfair in my eyes as I don't feel it is deserved. It's reaching a stage where I don't know what to do with myself. I know the problem lies in my personality. Does anybody else share my experience?

vicioussmith vicioussmith
Mar 14, 2010