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I Often Feel Worthless

I am struggling with feelings of failure, worhtlessness and helplessness. I feel like I am maladjusted to society and to a working environment. I have zero organisation skills, I cannot plan ahead or anticipate or take initiative. I am always scared of getting things wrong. I have never been able to hold a job for longer than a year (except my current job - 17 months). In all the jobs I have had, I have always had problems coping with the workload, organisation, relationships with colleagues etc etc.

I also feel like I am not good girlfriend material, let alone wife material. I have mental health issues and feel unstable. I feel like I cannot be "normal".

I fell in love with a man who left me after 5 years of a semi-abusive relationship. Then my life fell into a spiral of depression, self-destruction, and vain attempts to meet a new man. I ended up sleeping with more people than I ever had in my life before - because, pathetically, it was the only way I could think of to make a man love me (and of course, it didn't work, and I was dumped time and again by men I had told myself would finally be the one, the one I'd spend the rest of my life with).

I don't feel THIS low all the time... but often. And I don't know how to feel better about myself.

There is a part of my mind that believes I am actually a loveable, valuable person. But it's like my heart can't believe it.
DancingFox DancingFox 31-35, F 6 Responses Feb 17, 2011

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I also feel worthless, I had a job for almost 11 years and had some issues that made me quit, and now I feel worthless but i am too scared to work again feeling like I will fail. I know i am a good worker but too scared to try.

The thing that MantisRelgiosa is referring to here is Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT).

If you google it you can read the step-by-step instructions & do it on yourself. A friend of mine who is a psychologist uses it. It works =)

I feel exactly the same, though I have never even had a job, or a boyfriend, for fear that they would both "leave" me, anyway.

I have just recently heard about this thing called "tapping" that's supposed to help you get rid of strong subconsciously-fed emotions, like fears of all sorts, or feelings of worthlessness, anger etc.

It's based on "energy points" in the body, and I have only done one serious session of about 10 minutes, and while I did, indeed, feel much calmer and my feelings subsided, it only lasted for about an hour or so..they say you have to do it every day, so dunno...truth is I feel stupid doing it, because it looks so ridiculous. And find it difficult to believe in it.

It's done by people who are connected to that whole "The Secret" philosophy.

That's exactly it, CrabnPickle. Thinking it in your mind doesn't mean you feel it in your heart.

Thanks for adding me ^_^

Sorry to hear you're so low, Clem. From what I know of you, you seem a very loveable, valuable person. But I know how it is when your mind thinks one thing but you feel another - I often think 'You know, you're a loveable person really', but I never feel the confidence and self-esteem that you'd expect would come with that.



*hugs*

My story is pretty similar. I wonder what it feels like to have confidence, to be "normal", to not be afraid of something all the time.