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When I look at myself, in any circumstance, I look contorted or smudged. When I go out, I wear clothes that wouldn't be noticeable. When people look at my I feel as if they're disgusted. It's hard for me because I was never one to judge people on looks, I don't understand why I care so much about it in myself. My best friends are all beautiful and get plenty of attention, I'm too quiet and off looking to be noticed. I can't stand the way I look. I want to wear a f*cking bag over my head, that would probably make people give a ****.
hgosch hgosch 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 19, 2011

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I'mSorry I'm Matt

I'm not even going to dignify this delusion with a response... you are ******* cray cray if you think that. Seek self esteem counseling.

Hey I can relate somewhat of what you are going through im going through the thoughts of not liking the way I look since im so fat and still gaining weight and I do get many looks and I do hear lots of comments related to my weight. Its so hard for me to do much because ive grown so big (582lbs) the world does not treat people of my size so nicely. Especially when I go out to eat everyone looks to see how am I going to fit in the chair. Buying clothing for a person of my size is so hard anymore so its been tough. Hang in there.

I am so with you.

Well, maybe they do think your are beautiful, but think you are unapproachable, and are to intimidated stare at or talk to you, I know I do this allot when I see a really beautiful woman.<br />
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In fact I am sure this is the case, I am sure you are very very attractive, and men do notice, that's for sure.

i just looked at one of your photos and i think you are pretty hot.

I wanna bag too. An old school paper one. That way I could draw a happy face on one side, and a pissed off face on the other.<br />
Its also a good way to get on tv at hockey games.

Why would you feel that they're disgusted with you?

i always feel that everyones eyes are on me when i'm outside too. ALWAYS thats why i hate going out . i try walking in a certain manner, looking at certain stuff , everything planed so none notices me because i always feel like i stand out even if i dont do anything! often i think its my butt :S