I Have Low Self Esteem
why is it that material things are only a short-term fix? why can't they just make things perfect? I have such low-self esteem and I have struggled with it for what seems to be all my life. I have currently gotten the fake nails and a pedicure to make me feel better about myself. I've also started tanning. But JEEZ these are only short term fixes. How can I love anyone else if I can't love myself?? I suffer from depression b/c of how hard I am on myself. Even though I've lost 40-45lbs in the past 10 months or so i still feel horrible about myself. I know the physical issues are fixable, but what about the inside?? I need too much gratification from everyone else to make me feel good. Sigh..why can't I just not care what everyone else thinks?? Only if material things could fix self esteem issues permanantly...wouldn't that make life so much easier? hahaha