I Am Working to Improve Self Esteem.
Hi, I am new. I think my self esteem has always been low. I am trying to improve it. I have always been shy and do not like to draw attention to myself. I think some childhood experiences has contributed to this. Also I have only felt truely loved once in my life. Got dumped and this added to my low self esteem. I have always tried so hard to be a nice person. But I don't seem to be able to connect with people well. I guess I have an expectation of how I would like to be treated and because sometimes I feel that people are mean or cruel then I think there is something wrong with me. So now I just try to nurture myself and learn about myself and what I need. Maybe I am just not connecting with people that are like me. I also think it is very important to change your thinking. If you are nervous or worried then you bring it into your being. I try to be oblivious to what I think others are thinking. Its like if I worry that I am going to trip, then I will. I have recently started taking medications for anxiety and they have calmed my nerves down a bit and this has helped. I have also been seeing a therapist and she tells me that it is my negative self talk and she tells me to say STOP to myself when I talk negatively to myself in my head. Anyway, I would love to talk and share. I am a very compassionate person.