I Have Low Self Esteem
I posted this as a comment to a certain thread (of course, I edited some of it) but since it is already lengthy and it sounds like a story, I will post it as my first story here.
I guess you can't just have everything in life. In my case, I am confident with the way i look but not with work. A lot of guys tried to court me, I made a lot of friends in my entire school life and I seriously had good grades but I really feel like a dummy at work. I am an under achiever at home and I am left out with my friends in terms of career and income. and hell, I don't even have a stable job. Because of this, I don't want to meet people. I don't want to have new friends. I avoid guys who likes me. I always feel like I have nothing to be proud of. During my school days, I was popular, cool, and I had big dreams.
My older sister who used to be fat, unhappy, loner, ugly, undesirable, bullied, and humiliated is now admired by many. Back then, a lot of people know she is smart but who cares? She struggled to look good. It took her many years and she sacrificed things to get what she wants. A lot of tears was shed. She had felt self-pity all the time. Now, she is respected at work. She's an exceptional earner, big companies contact her. Guys have a crush on her. She was hopeless before now she's happy.
What I mean is, what comes around, goes around. Someday, it will be your turn to be happy. I had my turn during my school life but now, I feel miserable. I comfort myself by saying it's not the end. We can't get everything in life but we can struggle to make things better. I always tell myself to stay positive though I am hurting. But that's the best that I can do now other than praying. Lalala. :D
I guess you can't just have everything in life. In my case, I am confident with the way i look but not with work. A lot of guys tried to court me, I made a lot of friends in my entire school life and I seriously had good grades but I really feel like a dummy at work. I am an under achiever at home and I am left out with my friends in terms of career and income. and hell, I don't even have a stable job. Because of this, I don't want to meet people. I don't want to have new friends. I avoid guys who likes me. I always feel like I have nothing to be proud of. During my school days, I was popular, cool, and I had big dreams.
My older sister who used to be fat, unhappy, loner, ugly, undesirable, bullied, and humiliated is now admired by many. Back then, a lot of people know she is smart but who cares? She struggled to look good. It took her many years and she sacrificed things to get what she wants. A lot of tears was shed. She had felt self-pity all the time. Now, she is respected at work. She's an exceptional earner, big companies contact her. Guys have a crush on her. She was hopeless before now she's happy.
What I mean is, what comes around, goes around. Someday, it will be your turn to be happy. I had my turn during my school life but now, I feel miserable. I comfort myself by saying it's not the end. We can't get everything in life but we can struggle to make things better. I always tell myself to stay positive though I am hurting. But that's the best that I can do now other than praying. Lalala. :D
By:
smallrocky77
Age:
18-21
,
Female
