I Want To Be Loved: But Can't Risk To Be Hated

I want to be loved and have friends who I can trust and fall in their arms when I cant go on but so far that moment has never come to me. I was bullied and my primary school for being light brown instead of white like everyone else. My parents didn't believe me when I told them so I carried on suffering. Now I look around in my secondary school and watch everyone hanging out and having fun and wish to do the same but I get to scared about what they will think of me. I want to be loved but I am to afraid to be hated.