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I Am Weird

I have a big head, horrible face, depression, bipolar disorder, assexual(option because my natural state is gay), crippled by depression over the years, I am talking about 16 years battling this illness. I have no elf-steem cause I am horrible, I dont leave the house, just go out by car.
When I was a kid and teenager they called me names like big head or monster or ugly or freak, one day one asked me why I didnt kill myself. This way it's impossible to have self-esteem...
Riqq Riqq 26-30, M 17 Responses Nov 16, 2012

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i am also same situation you are in. I feel depressed everyday and fight it . i don't know what to do , feels so lonely Since i cannot do anything , i just go for it, wait when all this **** will finish as it started,

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I hate it when people offer advice. Don't they realize how patronizing these "pep talks" are?

I'm in the same situation as Riqq. I'm ugly and depressed. I can relate to how he feels.

The only difference is that self-loathing has taken a different turn: I want to punished and hurt. To contradict what someone else here said - 'it's not your fault' - I say it is my fault. Maybe it's bad karma. Maybe I'm repulsive and ugly and stupid and depressed for a reason. I accept the fact I am unworthy of anyone's love or friendship ... and that gets me through the day.

- You're not a kid anymore, the past exists only in your own head, it doesn't outside.
- What you mentioned, the only real problem is bipolar & there is aid for that even. The rest are NOT 'innate issues', they are results. They are (as proven) removable & treatable.
- 'Horrible' doesn't cause low self-esteem, the interpretation of yourself DOES. 'Horrible' is the interpretative word you used as a result of comparing outward material substance to others. Everyone has a unique personality.
- In this world you will always have people greater than you or are less fortunate than you. Look at the less fortunate!
- Your depression is a result of constant negative train of thought that became your normal train of thought now. You need to (takes time) train your mind to think positive until it becomes your train of thought.
- You have no permenant damage, you need to recognise that, and you need to be REAL with your self. Recognise your operating under false assumptions and you CAN fix this. Because others have. I'm one of them. I'm being real with you, and I want you to be real to yourself. There are horrible people in this world, but do what you need to do sincerely and the right people will fall in place, don't chase them.

Waz

I feel kind of like you sometimes. And I've considered ending it all quite a few times. One thing that happened to me that was the most help was when I took a junior college class. Not the class itself, but when you are enrolled you have access to the counselors. Mine had a masters in psychology. She was so encouraging and positive that it lifted me up every-time I saw her. She told me things weren't my fault and showed me a perspective that was a healthy way of looking at things. She was more of a coach encouraging me and making me feel better about myself. I am not enrolled there now and can't see her any more, but I that learned having good, encouraging, positive, people to help cheer me on and that all these bad feelings are not my fault has given me a chance to be happy. Please don't end it yourself, you are a valuable person. One other thing I've leaned was in a story I heard. It was a boy who watched his parents killed in Iraq. In the story he told how it shaped him into what he is now as an adult. All of the helplessness, doubt, and pain is who he is and he knows that. He accepted it as part of himself and that empowered him. For me I know I will always be insecure and have self-worth issues, I accept it. But as I've learned it's not my fault and it is manageable. Work on finding a counselor. Stay alive, you are worth it.

I Can Help
to all me friends and anyone you know that might be interested.....
As you may or may not know, I have been diligently working to complete my certificate-cation to be a Certified Self-Mastery Coach. I am ready now to begin my practicum “
training with my school www.HolisticLearningCenter.com , and I need practice clients to fine tune my coaching skills.

I can only work with a few "
practicum clients at one time. The people I train will receive their first 10 Self Mastery coaching sessions absolutely free. That's a win-win for you and me because I get the practice I need to become a professional coach, and you receive an in depth self-help mastery course with its clinically proven exercises and educational materials.
To allow you to be able to deal with life's ups and downs in a way that will benefit you. This course covers many areas in our life such as weight mastery, money mastery, self empowerment,relationships,self parenting, and more You are NOT required to do any travel because all our work will be done over the phone; each session is only 50 minutes; and you will submit your weekly Self-mastery assignments via email.I want to share with you that I have completed the same Self-mastery Classes that I will facilitate with you, and what I experienced was life changing. My world looks different because I am now looking at life through with a new pair self-empowered eyes.

Please contact me ASAP if you are interested in becoming my practice coaching client because I only intend to begin with two coaching clients. Call me if you are ready to advance to your next level of your soul’s evolution. We can begin your coaching sessions as soon as you are ready. please only serious inquiries as this will require some SELF work.
Namasté
Yankeesgirl01
and please repost for me thanks ♥ U all !

Enough! Depression won, my life is over, I'll be in peace for the eternity

I feel I can't say a lot because Im a kid and I dont know a lot, but
I get your having a hard time letting go of things. I have felt unhappy about the same thing for three years since I was in sixth grade. It isn't going away. And in fourth grade I was made fun of my weight a lot by my peers when I changed schools. I'm still self-conscious about my weight, but I guess most people are nowadays....

Have you considered the person you are on the inside than the superficial outside? If you have more inner confidence, you look better on the outside and feel better on the inside. Looking good can sometimes quite literally come from within.

You need to put the past behind you as well. You need to stop ruminating about things you cannot change and instead focus on the things you can still affect. Put your effort into the things that really have an impact on you in the present.

the reason you are posting on this website tells me that you are a warrior, you are trying to share your emotions and finding ways to better yourself. dont give up, i am in the same situation as you are but i've realized that giving up is actually the easier thing to do, do you want those bullys to see you suffer? do you want those people to out live you and be more happy than you? you parents didnt give birth to you for to you suffer because of words of strangers, its ok, everyone have flaws, and people are ******** in schools so youve got to realize, its not you thats problem, its everyone else, if youve done nothing wrong then you dont deserve to be treated like that. hang in there, find something you love, and try to find people that also loves that, and beat depression! its a long battle for some

I understand your sadness and despair. I am by no means, a cool person. I was ridiculed senseless as a kid. I am an under-employed, disturbingly underweight, single person who still lives with her parents and has a lisp, acne and a very embarrassing fat fetish and gets teased a lot about it.
So? Do I die? Do I give up? No. I sometimes don't want to get out of bed and face people, but I FORCE myself to do the things I ought to do and I cross them off my list. The result? I get more done, feel better about myself and look better. I'd say that if you have to force yourself to do ****, do it. It may sound harsh, but it helps with depression and low self-esteem.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself. There are many people that would die to be in your position.
Tyler Durden: I say never be complete, I say stop being perfect, I say let... lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may.
Come on, man. You have nothing to lose and that's beautiful. Live.

I made up my mind, sorry everyone...

one thing that has helped me tremendously, I am not sure if it'll work for you or not. Try to do something, learn something, take an art class, pottery class, kapeira, tae kwon do, a tap dance class. trust me as you learn and get better, you can't really hate yourself as you get better. You can't hate yourself with the achievements that you make.

Honestly, you don't need pretty words of encouragement from random strangers from a website. I just joined today and when I saw your post, I wanted to tell you to accept yourself for who you are and not let your personal setbacks bring you down. But these are just words. You're dealing with something that's been bothering you for your entire life and it's only natural to be struck with negative emotions about yourself and your life. A lot of people turn to God for their troubles as a way to relieve themselves from all the pain in the world but you're an atheist so what has God have to do with anything right? Not a damn thing. You're the one that makes the decisions in your life and that's the way it should be. So who gives a s*** if you have a big head and a "horrible" face. Aren't you a human being just like the rest of us? Just like me? We all have characteristics we wish were better but there's not much we can do about it so god damn it, love yourself for who you are. If you don't like your face, do something about it! I know this sounds like a difficult task (life is just filled with them and it's a *****) but reach out to someone who can help you look a little better. Get a different hairstyle (this one affects your image a lot), shave, wash your face regularly. Tiny changes here and there go a Long way. It might be uncomfortable at first but it's just about taking the first step in making you see yourself in a better light. But most importantly and probably the most difficult for you, Smile. Even if its the worst of days, try to fit in a smile. Smile and laugh about how awful your day has been and how awful your life has been so far. Laugh about the ridiculousness of your situation and how stupid it all really is. Life is stupid so laugh at it's stupidity and refuse to let it affect your own happiness. You don't need to be anything other than yourself. You don't need to be a popular guy, a social butterfly, another pretty face. All these things are irrelevant and don't amount to much in the end. What matters most at the end of your life is that you used your One Life to do what You wanted to do and had a damn good time doing it. If you like staying home all day watching movies, playing games, reading books, whatever, then by all means enjoy yourself in those activities! If you feel like going on a stroll around the neighborhood on a sunny afternoon, then hey that's a great idea. It's not the big things in life that make us happy, it's the little things. Treat yourself the way you would treat others. And that's with respect. I don't know who you are and I probably never will, but writing this post to you was the best thing I've done with my day today and I'm happy I did it. So here's my request for you. Choose 1 day out of the 7 days you have each week to do something that would make you happy. It can be Anything. I mean anything. Not getting out of bed can be an option too, as long as you're happy doing it and putting a grin across your face. Just make sure you're smiling whenever you're doing what you enjoy doing. Best of luck riqq, I'm rooting for you.

it doesnt matter if your ugly pretty it matters if your Gods child.

My goodness,people told me americans were religious but now I can see how much...

its ok i have a big head to ALOOT of people i am ugly i look like im retarded and i try to build up my self-esteem but it doesnt work i sometimes wish i wasnt here to but some people on this earth need us and one day and we cant leave them so just keep your head up.

It's easy to say but it really hurts me...

No belieave me right now i am crying my eyes out because both my sister are beautiful and i am the ugly one i am 15 yrs old never had a guy like me kiss me date me or nothing ! everybody just calls me ugly but inside this uglyness is a amazing heart and nobody will get that

I am 29 and during school I always was called ugly, big head, those bullies destroyed my adult life, I just dont function. You have a long road aheah to suffer, I am on the edge of suicide...

What about the people that needs you?god has something planned for us and you wnt be there to see it if you kill yourself

I am atheist, which means I dont believe in god. For me death is the end.
And even if god existed I would be glad to yell swearings at him for making me ugly, not rich and depressed...

um ok thats not good god made you who you are and i need to realize that god is putting you thright this because he has something BIGGER for yo and if you dont belieave that im sorry

I wont change my mind, lets stop talking about this...

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