Struggling But Doing Something About It

I never thought my self esteem would get so battered to the point where I had none. I always was confident with my looks, my intelligence, and heck even my body. But a lot of things happened in the last two years that have just slowly diminished my self esteem to zilch. To the point that I had to be medicated. I went to a meditation camp as well and that helped me some. But when things became too dire, I realized I had to simplify my life. So I did. I forgot my ego and my pride.. and started to think on what matters most... Now, I am trying to get my life back on track. I have quit my medication (with the doctor's help of course) and I think I am slowly trying to pick up the pieces together. My self esteem is still fragile for the moment.. But I am slowly working on it.. Surrounding myself with my family and true friends.. I never thought I would ever face low self esteem issues but it is real.. It is debilitating.. but I can work around it.. I have to.. I must. I remind myself that I still have my whole life ahead of me.. I know I forget it at times when I am down in the dumps.. But not today.. Today, I have an ounce of confidence in me.. I hope you too will have such tender mercies.. :) Laugh a little, live a little.. Be your own best friend.. I will lend you some of my confidence until you get yours back. :)
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1 Response Jan 7, 2013

I am glad that you are feeling better. Simplifying life is so important. There is an old saying, "It is true I there have been many troubles in my life, and 9/10th of them have never happened". The more time we spend worrying, the less time we spend living.