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I Have Low Self Esteem

Im Just....Not Lovable..

By: Caitlinsmith1636
Written on February 17th, 2013
I always push away the ones i love the most by doing stupid idiotic things. Or just by worrying too much. I hate it. I hate myself at times because I'm over weight and just not that happy of a person. You could be having a great day and i will drop a bomb on it with my problems..i can't help it. It just happens. So that about sums it up. I think my nanny was right when she said i was a worthless and good for nothing.
By: Caitlinsmith1636
Age: 18-21 , Female
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19 responses
  • 6r4c3
    6r4c3

    Why is your nannny making such a remake? I would like to see from her view? Is it that her expectation is too high or unrealistic? Or did you really done sonething which she don't want?

    If you had done something. Then what is the thing you had done?

    I'm asking because then you can see a clearer picture.

    If it's because she has high and unrealistic expectation then I can tell you to IGNORE her. Because no matter what you do or you do not do. She will not be please.

    If you raise your problem and believe that it's a concern, then you have all the right. But if she can't see it. Then her eyes and heart got problem.

    If she have a problem because of your problem,could also be she feel for you. But she just don't know how to handle the problem.

    After all, everyone has a problem. It's depend how you look at it.

    Apr 6
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  • bornlucky77
    bornlucky77

    You shouldn't feel that way about yourself. Add me as a friend please

    Mar 30
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  • mickielane
    mickielane

    Me again- why would your no good nanny do that to you? Did ya ever think of hunting the ***** down and telling her how you feel? I dealt with teachers like that and sometimes I wish I could put them up in front of the class and make them feel the way they made me feel so many years ago. I wish I could take a paddle and smack their big fat ***** till they cried while the class looked on and laughed.

    Mar 19
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    • Caitlinsmith1636
      Caitlinsmith1636

      I probably am worthless. I can't seem to find a reason to think otherwise. She might be right...

      Mar 19
      1 like
  • Pugfan76
    Pugfan76

    Your nanny is just jealous of you. I can't think of any other reason a nanny would say that to her granddaughter. You have a cute face and smile. girls your age have it made more so than boys.

    Feb 18
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    • Caitlinsmith1636
      Caitlinsmith1636

      Thank you, i believe she is partly right though.

      Feb 18
      1 like
    • Pugfan76
      Pugfan76

      When I was 16 i went to group therapy and it helped. Great way to talk about your problems with people who also have self esteem issues. I can relate to the pain you're going through. btw, You're lucky that your still so young. I wish I was 18-21 again.

      Feb 18
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    • Caitlinsmith1636
      Caitlinsmith1636

      Thank you :)

      Feb 18
      1 like
  • hotblooded58
    hotblooded58

    Your nanny doesn't know what she's talking about. You are a smart and beautiful girl who deserves to be happy and don't let anyone make you believe otherwise. =)

    Feb 17
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  • ForgottenMale
    ForgottenMale

    Wish I could push people away. People just do not want anything to do with me.

    Feb 17
    1 like
    • Caitlinsmith1636
      Caitlinsmith1636

      You don't want to push them away, your wanting to lose feelings for them. Theres a big difference in that. I have many people i wish i could just lose feelings for.

      Feb 17
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    • ForgottenMale
      ForgottenMale

      I guess I am lucky since no one really wanted me I do not have to be cursed by those feelings.

      Feb 17
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    • Caitlinsmith1636
      Caitlinsmith1636

      Just hang in there, things will get better :) i promise.

      Feb 17
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    • ForgottenMale
      ForgottenMale

      I know, they will get much better when I finally kill myself.

      Feb 17
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    • Caitlinsmith1636
      Caitlinsmith1636

      No, thats not what you need to do at all....please don't do that...

      Feb 17
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    • ForgottenMale
      ForgottenMale

      It is the best option for me. I will just be alone, and probably targeted in the future for some kind of crime because I fit the profile. You know guy alone and no friends. Best to just get my death over with now. That way I can burden that ***** who birthed me the burden of getting rid of all my stuff.

      Feb 17
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  • Kkl3v
    Kkl3v

    I know exactly the feeling...

    Feb 17
    1 like
    • Caitlinsmith1636
      Caitlinsmith1636

      I am sorry to hear that you know how i feel. It is not a good feeling to have.

      Feb 17
      1 like