Image Issues

I have huge issues with my husband buying mags like picture and saving pics of hot chicks off metacafe. Each time I find something like that I take it as a personal knock to myself and feel like I'm not good enough. My husband says that all blokes look at them and it's nothing to do with me being unatractive. But the girls he looks at never look like me and besides lately (after I made it very clear I needed to be told when I looked good) my husband never came up and told me that I'm hot.  Other people tell me that I'm good looking and that my body's great for having two kids but I still feel like I should be something else - I'm seriously considering a boob job as my boobs have shrunk considerably and are saggy(grose!!) hubby says it doesn't bother him but he's a boobie man and all the women in the pics he looks at have awsome boobs! I spend all my time trying to look better - even sitting in different ways so that he can't see my 'I have too much skin on my belly' rolls. Some days I feel like I'm ugly and others I feel like I'm hot but my husband isn't noticing or doesn't care because there are so many chicks better looking than me out there! I used to beleive that it was seeing hot chicks that made us bad but now I beleive its the reaction that men have to them thats the prob! To me wanking over pics of other women is as bad as sleeping with them especially when I don't think the wanking would've happened if the pics weren't there (is that wierd??). I really want to know how to be happy with what I am as I know I have it pretty easy compared to others with image issues but everytime I think I'm ok I'll find a new pic or something and I go through it all again. (My husband would
mum08 mum08
26-30, F
Feb 21, 2007