Worried About Everything
As well as being paranoid about my looks I also worry about things as small as going to a new building - I worry that I'll look like an idiot when I can't find the door or I'll be trying to push it when it says pull! I have no idea why I worry about this I don't judge others when they do something like that -actually I go out of my way to make them feel comfortable about it- so why do I think that someone else will be looking at me saying look at that tool who doesn't know which way to open a door? I even hate it when my husband finds us a table at the shopping centre and I have to find him cause I think I'll look stupid standing there trying to find where he is! I can't pee in public toilets or even at work unless there is alot of noise or I know there are people around as I'm afraid someone will hear me- I have even flushed the toilet and prenteded like I've gone then I've had to go straight home so that I can go for real!! The thing that makes that really wierd is that I've had 2 kids - there is no dignity in that so why does something absolutely normal bother me?!! Is anybody else wierd like that??