Who Am I?

i totally have low self esteem. i thought as i got older i would change but i haven't. i don't know why i was put on this earth. i haven't done much with my life. i don't know what i want to do. i just exist really. i feel so alone sometimes, then when my boyfriend is around, he's always so upbeat and easy going he makes me happy, then when he leaves i don't know what to do. i think he's going to get tired of me being so clingy and leave. feeling really lost.
prettyinpink prettyinpink
46-50, F
5 Responses Mar 25, 2007

I know how you feel, I'm scared of the same thing, I was at college the other day and my male friend said he had an ex that was clingy and couldn't do anything by herself so he dumped her for it and mocks her for it even now.. <br />
It made me think,. But i can't change iv'e tried, I don't have the confidence to become more independent

I am just like you (plus, my favorite color is pink.) I often feel very alone, I don't have any friends at my new school. And when I'm with my boyfriend I am happy and I could be complete self with him. But when it's just me, I'm not so happy. I get really sad actually. So I understand completely.

If you are a scorp then i this is understandable.<br />
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This is because you focus all your energy on your partner and try to understand them fully.<br />
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This is where you can lose sight of who you are, i was the same.<br />
I find focussing your energy and feelings into something you really enjoy doing. Plus finding similar like minded people will help you to bring other things to your relationship.<br />
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This is just a suggestion you don'yt have to agree or take my advice. I am just saying it may help.<br />
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Good Luck and don't be so hard on yourself, you have lots to offer.

prettyinpink<br />
I am the same. Very needed for company. MY problem is I don't do anything. I want to have some fun for once in my life. I have anxiety and I guess the thing that helps with the anxiety is doing something fun. Now fun for me would be having the company on a trip, or going to the beach swimming, or company hiking, or skiing. I used to do that kind of stuff. NOw, I just sit in the house and do nothing. What is life all about?<br />

I don't know if he would leave if you were a little clingy. But you could always take it down a notch if you want. If you have been dating for a long time and have been clingy during that time, I don't think he cares. Sounds like all you need is someone to hang around with.