...Yes I Do

I guess I always have, Alot of times I second guess myself or find that I'm not good enough for whatever...

Latley, my esteem has risen, but not enough for me to really feel CONFIDENT in what I like to do...and such. And it's usually the same stuff too...

Even in my hobbies, I play guitar, but not that great....I know some chords...whoopee.

I draw, but I always find my art sub-par...perhaps I think I can do better than I actually CAN

and another when it comes to relationship...Always thinking, that perhaps I'm not good enough for her, or...What would a girl like her see in a guy like me...Etcetera, etcetera...

I mean, I know I can admit to myself that I do have a low-self esteem....But I don't know how to change that...Which kinda bites, I would love to be able to look at myself and say, "I CAN!" instead of "I can't..."

...Another thing is, I'm known for trying to help people, make them feel better, at this moment I try and forget about MY problems to help...Which was once complemented as a great quality...

But I can never switch roles, I have so much trouble asking people for help, or recieve help thinking it wouldn't work...That I'm a lost cause...

...I know I can feel more confident in myself, less afraid of consequences...It's just....hard

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18-21, M
1 Response Apr 11, 2007

The fact that you can play guitar at all is impressive. I have no sense of rhythm. Or really melody. Or tone. I generally should never be put near an instrument. Or sing either, lol. Something that may help with not being able to go to other for help is to remind themselves that your happiness is just as important as yours. Being in a real relationship isn't really possible if you are never yourself long enough to admit when you are unhappy. And when you think that your not good enough at something, just think about how annoying you would be if you were perfect at everything!