Only One Facebook Comment Can Be Enough...

I don''t know why, even when you hate every piece of yourself for worrying about a certain issue, you still continue worrying about it. I turn to EP only because I can't talk to anyone else about this. It seems so not worthy of bringing up and stressing about, but it's in my head and I can't escape it. So, here we go, I'll just step on that feeling of embarrassment and blurt it all out. 

Now is the time of Winter Olympics. One of my friends yesterday posted a comment on Facebook, saying that "the Russian curling team had one good looking girl on their team. But the Sweden and Denmark team, now that's another story." The friend said it specifically to me. He and his other friends also recently became fans of Madeleine Dupont, one of athletes from Denmark. 

 I interpreted the comment implying that Scandinavian women are hotter than Russian. Although I do not really look Slavic, I was born in Russia, and that comment still bothered me. I live in the US now and It seems that here a lot of stereotypically-attractive women are of Scandinavian descent. It also doesn't help that I overall have a low self-esteem and always wished to be more Americanized (includes accent, looks, manners, culture). I know I should value how unique I am and all that, but sometimes I just don't believe it and have a hard time finding anything good about myself, and this "uniqueness" just kills me. That's what this little stupid comment started and i can't get it out of my head.

I'm embarrassed to talk to that friend about this. I know he didn't mean to offend me. I'm awfully ashamed that something minor like that touched me, but for whatever reason I just can't move on. 

noreallyimfine noreallyimfine
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 19, 2010

I feel the same way, I always feel bad about myself when guys post that a girl is 'hot' and goes on about them for ages, I get incredibly jealous and then check this girl out that is making them go crazy like for example (megan fox) I feel like i MUST copy how they look completely from hair to makeup to how they wear there clothes. <br />
just so as i am pretty and feel better about myself. <br />
I think they're obviously doing something right that i am not..

Hey, I am sure you are beautiful and I hope you are feeling better now :)