Sad On the Inside...

I'm working on it. They say "fake it til you make it" (I think)

I just wish one day, I won't be faking it but actually feeling it. Happiness that is. I pretend alot. I am sad and my personality is sad but on the outside I smile, work, play, go. I wear many masks depending on who I am interacting with.

One day I just wish to be me fully! No masks, no changes, no pretend.

That will be a good day.

aniave aniave
31-35, F
4 Responses Sep 12, 2009

I feel the same way, I guess.... it;s like nobody sees the real me...all they see is just 1/1000000 of myself... I wish I could be more truthful but It's just hard for me to do it... :O

"fake it til you make it"??<br />
Whooa, I have serious doubts that it will work in the long run. I've been trying for more than 40 years and am still not there. It actually hurts me more, people seem to love the fake me more than the real me(s).<br />
The answer is to be you, then find the people who do care about the who you are, no matter what. People who like/love your fake you, might leave... Pity, but there are nearly 7 billion people on this planet... :)<br />
Once you've found some people who do care, loving leads to happiness...


i can understand it feels bad. even i think the same for me, i hate my personality :( i treat each person differently by pretending and wearing masks, sometimes its frustrating but cant help it... m also looking for the way to get out of it, if u find it then plz share it with me.....