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Multiple Personalities Or Great Imagination?

I'm in my 30's and the idea of having multiple personality disorder is not something new to me.  I've always believed there was something just a little different about me as I've grown up, other than having a great imagination.  I've read up on the topic, discussed it with very few people in my life, and wonder to myself all the time if I really have it or if the people that I feel like I am, depending on the circumstances, are just part of my way overactive imagination.  I can't afford to go see a professional about it, and do I really want to?  The experience hasn't hurt me thus far, in only confuses me and those few people whom I've chosen to tell, or at least try to explain it to.  I'm at a loss right now, not sure what to do or how to explain anymore to my girlfriend.  I trust her, I'm just scared...and not exactly sure what to tell her, how to expect her to react, etc.  How is a lover/friend supposed to react anyway?

vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 26 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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Do you have memory problems? Especially short term memory problems? Or just sometimes spew out info you didnt realize you knew? For example, someone asks you a question to converse over relating to biology and you reply as if you were reading the text book to them, and sounding like a college professor. All the while not being continuously aware you knew what you did. And yet still felt ok with it because it came out so natural. Do you lose your train of thought often? Ever talk with another person and oddly feel connected to them? Connected as if when you talk, (all types of subjects) something just seems fishy? Out of place.. as if the subjects people talk of with you relate to your life in an odd way. As if you were being watched all the time by a secret something. Or do you feel like someone has kept secrets from you all your life? A secret or secrets that everyone except you are in on? Do you feel like you might be living a secretly taped reality tv show with no script? Does it feel like your life is a combination of the two movies: Fight Club and The Truman Show and you just have no idea you are nutz? Is it odd to you the way events in your life add up? Have you felt like your entire life is for some huge purpose? As if there is a special reason or task you were born to complete. Have you felt different or special from everyone else your whole life? Because if so, I think we should talk a lot more on this subject... thanks hope to hear back.

You just summed up my life so far. Its maddening that for every answer i tell my self i can't help but believe that Life is just a giant computer game and I'm the only one who knows about it.

Hi Vampireheart. I see your story was written awhile ago. I hope you are well. I hope things went well for you, and that you shared. I hope you found what you needed by sharing.

I understand how confusing it is if u already have an active imagination or as u say over active lol. It is hard. A therapist tried to tell me I was split a while ago and I did not believe her. But I named my personalities in case. Well one day one of my personalities interuced herself to my ex as a different name but the catch was she used the name I gave. So there was my "evidence" not the most pleasant cuz imagine how freaked a man or female will be if someone they love says they r someone else an they act, think and talk different. But it will come to light some day.

first from experience avoid the shrinks! your the greatest "toy" many of them could ever hope for don't enter the game they WILL ruin any chance you have at a"normal" life.

most want to emotionally dissect you,other want the "experience" to add some credibility to there professional resumes

you are unique and no I don't think if you have delved this far its just "imagination"

As I have some experience in this I would like for you to consider...

If you don't have blackouts , time you can't recall account for not induced by alcohol or drugs

If you haven't been approached by close trusted friends about " bizarre" behavior. ie speaking a foreign language or behaving like a completely different person. doing things like being opposite handed,losing some quality of sense eyesight ,hearing ect ..If whatever you experience doesn't disable you to the point of incapacity... learn to live with it.

it isn't worth the' institutional label" live to the best of your ability..that what any "normal"person would do.

What is it like for you to be "inside" while somebody else is "outside" in the body? What is it like inside?

What is it like for you to be "inside" while somebody else is "outside" in the body? What is it like inside?

Just don't worry, me, being a girl, I know how it feels when someone trusts you and tells you something he/she is scared of telling. But, trust me, be faithful and tell her the truth, She would be like a little shocked but everything would be fine, telling her the truth would be better than keeping it.

i am a multiple and my family says its my imagination.. But from the way i feel and i become who i say i am and feel it in any giving situation only you know how you feel.. Ive questioned it completely and told my boyfriend maybe i dont have it.. But then he said you lied then.. Then i have to really understand myself before anyone else can or has to try to... Some push people away I am very pretty and happy and outgoing but my true self pushes people away... because of my past and that is where it starts ... the past and the ;prestent... I just deal with it. and it is confusing..as well. but yes you can tell the switch... sometimes i notice a severe headache..or the mood switches.. completely..its very intresting.... to try to understand goodluck tama in mwc

Sometimes I try to take it back and say that I don't have it..but then that does not last lol..my biggest fear is finding out I am not split at all and simply have an identity crisis

i am a multiple and my family says its my imagination.. But from the way i feel and i become who i say i am and feel it in any giving situation only you know how you feel.. Ive questioned it completely and told my boyfriend maybe i dont have it.. But then he said you lied then.. Then i have to really understand myself before anyone else can or has to try to... Some push people away I am very pretty and happy and outgoing but my true self pushes people away... because of my past and that is where it starts ... the past and the ;prestent... I just deal with it. and it is confusing..as well. but yes you can tell the switch... sometimes i notice a severe headache..or the mood switches.. completely..its very intresting.... to try to understand goodluck tama in mwc

it can make life really confusingfor a person who has no idea what is going on



i have 5 will will see no change from the protector to richard other then stance will change when he comes out because all hell is about to break lose





between ricik and bad boy you will see some change ricki is a little more incent and childishbad boy is around the smae age but had to grown upo very fast and had to deal with a lot of things children should not have too over the years the fastes way to see him is to call badboy then you will understand



ricki is the middle one he is the one most deal with the one that wear levis and tee shirts and use to have a long pony tail he is the one that works so we have the money to buy toys and thinsg and he does not care as long as we are nice when others are around



did not even get made when richard bought the new bike a few years ago but then bad boy was made that he did not have one and wanted one too so he went and bought one too so now we and BMW sport touring bike and a 980 ss duck sitting here with about 100 miles on each



pony tails are funny,



one day a few years ago we went to the state fai,r here with the 2 that live here and one was not allowed to ride the merry go round and the operated made a few nice comment using the R word so badboy called a friend and they they went back to the fair later that night after getting a nurse to care for the 2 here.



and came home with a new pony tail to hang on the wall

yah, it's not easy...it's hard enough for me to keep track of everything in my head in the first place...especially when sometimes I don't even know who's there or what they're doing. It's like a total black out for me at times and it can last a long time, but it's not typical, just when I'm highly stressed. Then...add to that the idea of someone else getting used to "everyone", it's frustrating...

My ex loses his patitence sometimes. Cuz he claims we all have different values and want different things. He always says who am I speaking to. It annoys me cuz at times I don't realizes I became someone else or what I like to call shifting. I can't be aware all the time.

I'm with you there. Got to 34yo, figured out that not everybody has entire conversations completely in their head. Counselor makes a lot of observations of the rest of us, and there were just too many behavior differences to attribute to moodiness. Once we all started talking to each other, things made more sense. Now I'm voraciously reading accounts of other multiples and going - Hey, I recognize that! My b/f is learning to accept the idea, but I've got a couple of friends that are pretty okay to talk to about it too.

Yes...I told her about it, although it wasn't something that came to a surprise. I've touched on it before with her, just never actually talked about it in depth. When things started getting really bad though, it was hard to hide anyway...she knew when I wasn't myself. She is okay with it, tries to help with it...even "plays along" with it when an alter comes up. She learned it was easier that way rather than try to coax the alter away and me back.

I read your story and notice that it has been almost a year since you posted...Were you able to tell your gf and if so, has she been supportive?



I am in agreement with what was said earlier...If she loves you unconditionally, than she will accept you.



Good to see you again!:)

well she knows about it its just that she doesn't seem very open minded to it right now. She's familiar with some of the personalities, will cuddle the little girl, who has since been named Tamy. It just gets frustrating sometimes though because she'll give attention to her when she needs it but not so much the others, and they are probably more needy than her.

Firstly, you're lucky that you have a choice in telling your girlfriend. My fiance ended up finding out. (D'oh!)



If you trust her and wish to be with her for a very long time, and you know for a fact she isn't a loud mouth, why not tell her? Warn her it may sound unusual, and that you hope she can keep an open-mind for what you're about to tell her, then tell her. Should work fine.



It's okay to be scared. Let her ask questions after you tell her. If she should leave on you, wait a week to see if she comes back and apologizes for overreacting. If it doesn't happen that way, she might not have been worth your time to begin with.

ooooooh yeah! *tada!*

It will get you into a trouble again but that is life. Life suppose to be difficult and full of bruises to learn from. All of you need to learn harmony. Then you will be fulfill and happy. (my fingers went through your hair.)

thanks, i just hope i'm not reaching a "climax" so to speak with this whole thing, things are so active right now and we're all letting each other run wild, not sure if its a good thing for a change or if it will run people off and get me in trouble again.

If she loves you/her she will understand. There is nothing weird to have personality more than one. On the end everybody has at least two. If you stop worry too much and just accepted it will make it easier for you and others. I know it's not easy and confusing but believe me truth is the best. Those who love you, like you or consider to be your friends will stay. Others had being just showing the other not true personality and will leave. You don't need them my dear. EP is great start and you doing wonderfully.

no fair, that doesn't count, you cant repost the same thing you posted earlier! boooooo lol *tada!*

I'm thinkin' it's gonna make the bedroom a whole different kinda experience. Just have Brad start off and then you jump in and let Jay take it to the finish. *giggles*



Just tryin' to make ya smile my sweets! There's help out there, free help, if ya need a hand in finding it just hollar and I'm there for ya.



Smooches!

MSP

i know! yikers! Beth's girlfriend was just giving the update. We're on the atlantic side though, south carolina coast. *shivering* i so don't like hurricanes though, anywhere, i don't trust the little bastards! theyre like girls, changing their minds all the time *tada!*

Can't be that far if you were in the line of my storm... BTW Gustav is OTW so watch out.

lol, alright, done that before, piece o cake! when? where? what time? how far is the drive? lol

I'm thinkin' it's gonna make the bedroom a whole different kinda experience. Just have Brad start off and then you jump in and let Jay take it to the finish. *giggles*



Just tryin' to make ya smile my sweets! There's help out there, free help, if ya need a hand in finding it just hollar and I'm there for ya.



Smooches!

MSP