What The Hell Is Wrong With Me.
My life had always been crazy..so by the time I noticed,it was too late. I was loosing my memory, I was acting crazy, everything about me had changed,including how I looked. My legs were getting, for lack of a better word, weird looking, less muscle,thin, shakey...What the hell is wrong with me, Im athletic, I dance, I hike, im flexable, but this particular moment I notice 'ME'... im not bending,flexability..gone..Ive got an elevated body temp. and anxiety,fatigue, and im acting like im nutty..do I have that flu, again..that FLU..you know the one that comes and goes from time to time, I sure do feel like thats it.. call the doctor, take tylenol..It'll pass like it always does, right? Wrong, not this time..this time,That Flu was eventually, after 3 years, found in an MRI as an entity know to be multiple sclerosis.. MS? LOL, no way, not me, Im not blind, Im walking, My motor skills are keen...no.. not MS, not ME...Then my mind began a journey, Into random memory land, the leg aches,headaches, stabbing myself with my fork,not in the mouth , next to it..hmmm..the dropping of things, every thing some days, the anxiety,fatigue,slurred speech sometimes.. OH MY GOD! Those horrid spasms in my back,legs,stomach,now throat..yeh.....MS...yeh, ME.Well, now what the hell do I do? Im gonna cry,die,scream,throw ****,get sick to my soul, mour,wail..fall into a deep angry depression and give up!!!!! As funny as it sounds, I was watching Alien 3..Ripley was fighting this alien for years, just to find out its inside her,so,as im on the couch,sniffing, whineing, Im paying attention to the metaphor...she uses the situation to her advantage to destroy the devil inside..yes, she destroyers herself also, but then theres resserection! And that one, hey, thats me..Screw You MS monster! He who laughs last, has the last laugh, so there... Ive been on Copaxone for three years now, I look healthy, I feel better, and this my friends is a battle,with an ugly monster, and remember, when it looks,feels bleek...bad...get back in the fight, we will win..it may take a minute, and one hell of a battle, but when the dust settles, the sun will be on your face,you can do it, dont give up the fight!!!!!!! Hope this reaches your heart, makes you smile, and yes, I suggest the Alien series for MS and all who do battle with an evil foe!! lol, ..... LOVE,PEACE AND HOPE!!! yehtiel.