I Have Multiple SclerosisTen years ago I started having symtoms of MS. My leg went numb and I went to the doctor and he said I was just probably tired because I was studying at University and recommended taking a rest. Well, I rested for the next ten years until my Mom noticed I was walking funny and took me to another doctor who gave me an MRI and it showed I had MS and probably had it for sometime. My poor family they were told by different doctors that I was depressed, lazy and probably crazy. No need to say I lost all my self-esteem, my dreams of teaching vanished and I truly became depressed. Thanks to my Mom I would probably just had MS until I died. Well, I am feeling quite abit better now although the MS is still with me.
Then just a while ago my Mom got sick and she died. She was like my best friend. She was very sick and I felt I could not help her. I miss her,her giving and helpful ways, and I feel guilty( if only I could have done more for her maybe she would be here today.)
I am just lately trying to add more things in my life and get over the guilt. It is difficult but I believe one step at a time might do it.
lonelydeb 51-55, F 2 Responses 0 Jun 9, 2012