Register

I Have Multiple Sclerosis

I Have Multiple Sclerosis

By: lonelydeb
Written on June 9th, 2012
Ten years ago I started having symtoms of MS. My leg went numb and I went to the doctor and he said I was just probably tired because I was studying at University and recommended taking a rest. Well, I rested for the next ten years until my Mom noticed I was walking funny and took me to another doctor who gave me an MRI and it showed I had MS and probably had it for sometime. My poor family they were told by different doctors that I was depressed, lazy and probably crazy. No need to say I lost all my self-esteem, my dreams of teaching vanished and I truly became depressed. Thanks to my Mom I would probably just had MS until I died. Well, I am feeling quite abit better now although the MS is still with me.
Then just a while ago my Mom got sick and she died. She was like my best friend. She was very sick and I felt I could not help her. I miss her,her giving and helpful ways, and I feel guilty( if only I could have done more for her maybe she would be here today.)

I am just lately trying to add more things in my life and get over the guilt. It is difficult but I believe one step at a time might do it.
By: lonelydeb
Age: 51-55 , Female
935 people have read this story

Your Response

Please respond with authenticity, support, and respect
By clicking "Post", you confirm that you agree to the Terms of Service of Experience Project, Inc.
1 response
  • cuddlyab
    cuddlyab

    Life is a struggle, but hopefully there are enough joys along the way. I think you and your mother were so close, she should be there with you, if only in your heart and memories. I know you probably need more comfort than that. *hug*



    I'm having my struggles too, but nothing like MS or the loss of a loved one. I'm sure if you knew mine, I doubt you'd trade them.



    I use to be depressed in quite dismal ways. The only way I found out of that, was to see the connection, that down goes forever. I started reaching out and seeing where I could make a difference and forget myself. Over a short course, the joy and satisfaction from helping others in need helped fill the void. The other expectations I could not meet, as they were beyond any human control, I learned to loosen my grip on, but still fight for them. Someday I'll have more of it in my grasp.



    I wish you the best going forward.

    Jun 12, 2012
    3 likes