Please Help With My Study

So my question to you all who would like to participate (please do i love your insight for somebody who is also confused, insightful but curious with an open heart at the same time) and help me gain a new way of looking at this disease rather than my idea that "great so ill be paralyzed by 35...who the hell would want me then? who will take care of my kids? why am i still in college?. anybody please comment

Experiencing living with Multiple Sclerosis:

1.) How did you experience life before your diagnosis?

2.) What, if any symptoms occured that told you something was wrong?

3.) How did you feel about the diagnosis?

4.) What was your life plan now being diagnosed With Multiple Sclerosis?

5.) How do you feel about your life today? (Hope, Anxiety, Denial)

Your answers would be greatly appreciated, btw i might ask a few more questions just in case if i find your story truely interesting or maybe i feel like you want someone to pry but you dont want to seem needy like i do ( i kno i cry wayyy to much)
MSsurvivor MSsurvivor
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 7, 2012

I was diagnosed with MS a little over 20 years ago. Initially the effect on my life, my well being was devastating. Sure, the effects of MS can be gradual or sometimes less protracted, but the symptoms are always insidious, I entered the black valley of despond. It is true that for a period I rejected friends, relatives and family. In truth I wallowed in my own self pity. Until I met a fellow sufferer who encouraged me to take a positive grip on my attitude to MS.

In my own case I suppose I have been lucky (if that is the apposite word) the gnawing, uncertainty of this condition has advanced at a much slower pace than I first imagined. But, if that over used old saw can be revisited, 'every cloud has a silver lining'.

I worked as a journalist/ researcher and have always written. So I took a pseudonym and began writing. Eventually after a number of attempts, I had my first novel published. Okay, for a years' work I made very little money out of the exercise, but the result was cathartic. Gradually I was introduced to societies, discussion groups and many other similar organisations.

I now make a reasonable living discussing my progression with others, from the depths of self loathing, to the high altitude of respect I presently inhabit.

My experience of this pernicious disease, is that no two sufferers are identical. All I can advise is try to be positive.

And as for a god, and prayer, in my opinion it is a waste of your life. If god (ever) existed he/she/it is a pretty cruel b*****d.

If I can be of assistance, please contact me...