Learning And Dealing Ms

I am a 29 yr old single mom. I thought i had it tuff already, doing all the bills, house work and being both parents. I just had some control and keeping my head above water, that for my daughters first christmas, was all for her and nothing but for her. For mass on xmas eve i didnt ask god for anything myself, just to keep my daughter healthy and happy. I should of asked good health for myself. On xmas day i was in the er scared out of my mind wondering whats going on. Then the doctor came in with the news. I didnt know what to say, crying in the sheets was all i could do.
peachaubs peachaubs
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3 Responses Jan 6, 2013

I'm 33. Have two kids. This summer , at 32- I had a cold. My vision was changing. I've always been super healthy. I finally took myself to er after six drs failed with sinus meds. The er dr admitted me and I had an MRI to " rule out MS"- I shrugged it off. He called at 5 pm and said I was covered in lesions. " You have Multiple Sclerosis. That was 7 months ago and I'm still not adjusting. Not in denial anymore but scares, angry and alone. I can't see living the next 40 years with this. I don't see the point. I feel like a different person. I feel disconnected and I hate it. I've distanced myself from friends etc. nobody understands. No one. Not even my mother who is my rock and shield.

that is exactly how I feel. noone gets this disease because we "don't look sick"I feel like crap everyday I'm 29 with terms diagnosed in May 2012.I feel sooo alone in all this. I just want to be by myself all the time.I was taking rebif injections for 9 months but new neurologist wants me to stop and try the pill gilenya.and I work in a restaurants waitressing but it's getting difficult with my fatigue and optic neuritis. such a frustrating disease

I was diagnosed in 95 right before xmas.
That was the worst holiday of my life. My
wife was pregnant with our first child and
I didn't think I would be around to see her
grow up. Well, now she is almost 17, and we have five beautiful children!!
Life is what you make it!! At some point, you will have to accept it and move on.
This is not the end!! Staying positive is priceless. Embrace everyday!! None of us knows what will happen tomorrow.
Just know that you are not alone.
STAY STRONG!!!

Believe it or not, I sort of know how you felt or how you are feeling; because I too got that diagnosis exactly 6 months after the birth of my first child. That was 15 years ago; in the beginning it all started when I smacked my head on a beam(I did not knock myself out). But when I went to my family physician, she noticed my gait,(walking) was that of a drunk person; and after hearing about me hitting my head she ordered an MRI for me "just in case" and referred me to a neurologist who said "hmm... I think you have MS" but we'll wait for the MRI report to make a definite diagnosis. Two weeks later my GP called me in to the office and gave me the diagnosis; it was a day that no matter how I try I can not get those word out of my head "you have multiple sclerosis" And so my life changed forever! I too still cry in my bed, often wondering if this nightmare will end!