I Think I Have Munchausens

I have come to the conclusion that I have munchausens syndrome. I have always grown up having to one up the person next to me with a worse story of something that happened to me. Then it got worse, I started exaggerating the level of real symptoms to get sympathy from others. In the last 2 years I have been in the ER over 20 times and the mental health ward 4 times. Right now my insurance covers it but that insurance is about to run out, and my family can't afford for me to have so many medical problems. I have started to intentionally hurt myself, and I fantasize about being treated at the hospital.The other day I actually swallowed a whole bottle of pills so that my stomach would have to be pumped (turns out they don't pump stomachs for benadryl). What do I do?
An Ep User An EP User
1 Response Jan 19, 2013

The best thing to do is get help. You will only keep craving attention and the feeling of being treated, no matter how it hurts you or others. I'm struggling with this, and a part of me doesn't want to be treated because I like having this illness and I don't want to be better...but please talk to someone. You will do yourself a huge favor!