My "fish Hook"When I decided to have my nipple pierced I was in a miserable mental state, and a guy was playing games with me. I felt like a fish on a hook at the time, and I was trying to put my pain into a physical form. I liked pierced nipples, so I decided not to be so protective of myself anymore and let my pain become part of my physical person, ie to let it show. I didn't realise at the time but the guy who was hurting me was using my pain from my childhood abuse to manipulate me.
It's like my nipple knew, because until I got the guy's fish hook out of me and cut off contact with him for good, my piercing wouldn't heal. But now it's been healed for some years, but I am pregnant, and I have to take it out when the baby is born. I don't know if it will close up or not, some people say theirs did, and some say theirs didn't. I don't want the trouble of always putting it in and taking it out every time I feed the baby, so I will just leave it out. It will have to be out for at least a year, maybe longer, so I am just going to accept what happens. If it closes up I won't re-pierce it. Maybe I'll get a tattoo.