I'm Not Lazy!
After years of being diagnossed with depression and having tons of blood work done... I finally went in for a sleep study. Although the idea of narcolepsy is quite scary, I felt releaved that it wasn't just my personality. Everyone thought i was lazy and anti-scocial in college. I often missed out on fun times with friends b/c I chose sleep over them. Once, I was called out in grad school by a teacher. She laid into me about being disresptful by having my head on the table or eyes closed. I wish I had been tested then. Somehow, I made it through those tough years. I moved away for my first real job about 5 years ago and nearly got fired within the first month. I was constantly late, and missed important meetings that happened after lunch b/c i would fall asleep at my desk!! I eventually scheduled a nap time in, and hid on a bean bag behind my desk each day. Occassionally I would sleep for 45 mins in my car during lunch also.
Since being diagnosed, I have become a much better employee and overall more active person. Unfortunately, I rely on Adderall. I take several doses a day. When I go out on the weekends I have to estimate when I will want to go to bed and medicate accordingly. My family and close friends are all aware of my situation, though don't fully understand it. Anytime I go home to visit my parents for a long weekend, I think of it as vacation. I don't make plans that involve waking up early. They can't understand why I am still sleeping for 10 hours at night if I am taking meds. My sister is the same way. Anytime I decide to opt out of an event or choose to go to bed early, she assumes I must not be taking my pills! They don't understand how much I HATE relying on them, and don't want to fill my body with uppers when it's not neccissary. I'm still single, and have to say that the narcolepsy definately affects my relationship with men. When I go to bed, I want sleep... ASAP. It's very difficult for them to understand and be compasionate when they are sexually frustrated!! LOL