I am 23 years old.I have neurofibromatosis and i am dark and ugly I am from India where people usually associate dark skinned people to be ugly.
I was diagnosed with neurofibromatosis when i was 9 but never understood the complexity and inferiority associated with till i was 14.I also had suffered a stroke when i was a kid and i don't have proper control over my left hand and leg. Though i am grateful to god that i can still stand on my feet.
My neurofibromatosis is getting worse day by day i have lumps in my hand, lower back and almost everywhere.
I am ugly as **** and i have a bigger than normal head. I have never had a girlfriend and neither have i kissed a girl.
People around me ridicule me for the way i look for me being single.
When i try to get friendly with women they avoid me and turn away from me.
My family doesnt even understand my problem . EVEN MY MOM HAD CALLED ME UGLY.

EVER ******* DAY I THINK OF ENDING MY LIFE!!! WHATS THE POINT OF LIVING A LIFE LIKE THIS
nash90 nash90
26-30, M
2 Responses Aug 20, 2014

i know it can be hard especially when you live in an area where people do not understand your genetic condition.. everyone is beautiful in their own ways you just need to show the shallow people that your beauty is on the inside.

I'm sorry you are going through this. Beauty is more than outward appearance. I believe if you forgive those who have hurt you and begin to find you identity in Christ (Yahshua) that a new, undiscovered beauty will come throng your eyes and face and radiate throughout your body. Don't worry about the other pple. Find your hope and purpose in him! I really am sorry that you have had to go through this pain. Remember, we have a new body in heaven and this life is short. Put your trust hope and faith in the creator of the universe and He will do a great work in and through you!

Thanks for your support, in fact hope is the only thing i got may be the best of all things. That s the only the thing that is keeping me going. Its really tough when there is no one you can talk to and no one who understands you and nothing to look forward to