Tired Of All Of The PressureI'm a 24 year old who wants to have a relationship but is scared of getting into one because I'm sick of the rejection and the hurt. I will admit that I have a lot of good qualities and many of my friends and family keep wondering why I'm still single. I've been overweight my whole life and when I was in high school I worked hard and ended up dropping 80 lbs. Feeling confident and incredibly proud of myself, I worked up the courage to ask my crush out and he rejected me. From then on I thought what was the point of all of the that hard work on losing the weight if I still couldn't attract guys??? Then I realized that I lost the weight for the wrong reasons.
Fast foreword a few years, most of my friends are now in committed relationships and over half of my graduating class has/is getting married and having kids. I'm starting to feel like there's something wrong with me. This past year 2 guys have expressed their interest in me and the best part was that I wasn't even trying, like I usually have to. At the time I wasn't looking for a relationship, so I politely rejected them.
Lately my mom has been mentioning how much she wants grandchildren and I know that she's not trying to pressure me into hurrying up with getting into a relationship. However, I can't help but feel like I'm getting pressured on all sides. I feel like, there's this tiny voice in the back of my mind saying, "Well Well Meg, here we are yet again playing catch up because you couldn't get your crap together...you could've had a relationship with Craig" FYI Craig is a guy that seems nice but there's two reasons why it wouldn't work 1) I'm not attracted to him and 2) we're incompatible
So far I've been getting noticed, respected, and appreciated through my hard work and dedication to my job, friends and family. I feel like if I get into a relationship I'm going to loose too much of myself/identity. I feel like eventually, people aren't to see me as just me. Instead they'll see me as meg AND John Doe.
Am I over-thinking this? IS there something wrong with me?