Lonely Little Girl

It had never been one of my priorities because I always thought I need to work my butt out in my studies. I am a nerd. And what's worst being a nerd is that I'm shy and introverted so I don't have much friends in school. To why I became the person I am today is a looong story. Let's just say, I learn from my mistakes, in a funny way. Instead of being more grateful to the world, I punish and torture myself because it gives me some form of satisfaction that's really complicated.

It gets me thinking sometimes: What's wrong with me? Am I so flawed? No one ever likes me? As you know I am struggling from inferority complex ever since I was 11, and that doesnt help at all. I get all deppressed, imagining myself all old and wrinkly and alone. It's kindda pathetic.

fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench
22-25, F
10 Responses Jan 30, 2011

Ahhh I feel this too

I seek strength, not to be greater than other, but to fight my greatest enemy, the doubts within myself,

Think a different thought, see a different world......it is your choice

Glad you liked this it is a driving force in my life, *** and experience more

I know the feeling. Still I hope you felt better in the three years that came afterward. Add me if you would like to talk about it

How about this? You prioritised your studies over getting a boyfriend. Good for you! You made the right choice. It might be a bit lonely, but it's still the right choice.

it's 3 years ago hahahh

ah right!

@ somebody151 : i really really wanna believe you. thanks anyway. you made me feel better

I know you feel. I was shy in High School and never got the courage to ask anyone out. It's something I regret to this day. I always thought that I could never find someone. Relationships were for other people. It made me feel socially inferior. <br />
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Believe me you are not alone.

@ aliloveless : I always thought I was the only lonely girl in the world. sobss*<br />
@coderedgirlx7 : yeah maybe i should but i am always awkward at social gatherings and stuff like that.<br />
@ babe 11 : Thanx. Your comment cheer me up!

Well, you should work on making some friends now then. After you make some friends slowly work your way into making a boyfriend. You don't even need a lot of friends, just a few close ones. That's what I have :) And maybe you'll even find someone within that group of friends? You're still young, you'll find someone =)

I get what you're saying. I've been single all of my life, too. V-day is just another day and I'm pretty apathetic about it. "Who cares?" is how my feelings are for that day. Don't worry about that relationship drama. The fights, disagreements, and compromise are enough to keep me alone for life! I'm not expecting Prince charming (or princess hot-a-lot) to scoop me up & change my attitude. Somethings people have, somethings people wait for.